Out of Africa

I have seen this movie many times. However, I do believe that fate took a hand in it being on TV this weekend, on a channel with few commercials.

Last week I talked to someone who had been reading my blog. They said that my blog had a theme of loneliness. I laughed because I had to agree. Then they went on to say, in a very nice way, that we essentially are all alone. Sort of that "we come into the world alone and we go out alone". I understood what they meant.

In Out of Africa, the main character played by Meryl Streep, marries a man out of convenience and moves to a farm in Africa. She essentially doesn't know her husband, nor he her. They do get to know each other, but he goes off "hunting" etc. all the time... she has gotten comfortable having him around. LSS... she get syphilis from her husband and cannot have children, even though she wanted them.

Dennis and Barkly are great friends to her. They sit around telling each other stories (ummm the modern day folks use blogs for the same type of communication). She has a crush on Dennis and he on her.

They start a relationship. He is content with seeing her. She loves having him around but they speak nothing of the everyday business of running the coffee farm. They only tell stories and enjoy each other's company. She wants more, and she asks if he would marry her. He asks if she thinks a piece of paper would make him love her any more than he already does. He explains that we are basically alone, and that even though he likes having her in his life and him in hers, that some things just will not change. He will continue to leave to do business other places. He wants to know why she would ask more of him than he can give...

In the end, she does give in to his way of thinking... what I needed to hear was the theme of being alone and yet having others in your life. I just wish I could find the love as great as conveyed by their story... then I remember I have had that love... but just as with them, circumstances made it not possible to last for very long, much less than with Meryl and Dennis... maybe that was all I was suppose to have... time will tell...

So the moral of this story is that I am coping with being alone, but trying my damnedest not to be lonely...

I have a best friend, Amused Muse who is extremely frustrated with her SO, and when I hear those stories, I realize I have it pretty good in some respects...