Saturday, May 06, 2006

Collateral

I have said it before and I will say it again... Collateral, The Movie, in the first 5-10 minutes is one of my all time favorite scenes. Jamie Lee Fox gives the woman who was a passenger in his cab a postcard of an island so she can take a vacation anytime she wants.

That's the short version.

The long version is that in a matter of a few short minutes they both can feel the energy or chemistry between them and he gives her one of his prized possessions that to someone else is nothing more than a post card. They are the best gifts, and even the ones that cost a lot of money, if they are something that the recipient really wanted and would prize, can be good gifts too... but only when you understand the sacrifice behind them.

I have never asked for a gift back before today. I don't know that I really even asked for it back, but when I gave it, I simply said that we were a package deal. I sacrificed too much to let it go with him without me. Now, I sit here looking at it wondering WTF I am going to do with it. I wish I had not accepted it back, it put a smile on his face, and it pained him to return it. Maybe that was the best part, to see him in pain over what he had chosen... so in a way it was my collateral and I had to collect it, due to default of promises made.

Collateral, the movie, was on today, in fact it still is, but I only watched the first few minutes... it is the best part, for me.

Dream the Impossible Dream
Be open to meeting great people anywhere and be a person of integrity that shines through
I hope I can do that again soon.

5 comments:

Walker said...

Now this post I will not comment on because no matter what anyones says its meaningless.
You have to visit your soul for that answer.
Bit given the fact that it was given through a gesture of love and accepted in the guise of deceit be it on purpose of under deresss then feel no pai.
Adjust it and wear it as a trophy for winning in the end and be damned with the other losses.
You came out a winner just by not being like CB and by showing you are a better person.

Anonymous said...

I hope you got that $500 diver watch back. You followed your heart but he deceived you. I's like this - you gave it a chance when it never had a chance. So yes I think you should get your gift back

Bennu said...

Walker, Thank you for recognizing it was a gesture of love. I think that was lost from the beginning.

I cannot wear it as a trophy, I am thinking Ebay.

Anonymous,

yes, it was the watch. I tend to cheer for the underdog and I usually get what is expected, a loser...lol the underdog rarely comes out on top and if so, it is because I held them up on my shoulders so I am lost among the ruins it took to get them there.

Anonymous said...

Bennu
You hang in there.
this too will pass. You got gumption girl. I would hope that he's ashamed and that he feels some remorse. WTF was he doing in Houston with the ex? It doesn't sound like an ex at all - are they still married?

Anyway, you just hang in there. Go get lucky on Sunday. And yeah - ebay...way to go! :-). Let us know what it finally went for when you or if you actually list it
:-)

Bennu said...

Anonymous,

My friends have questioned whether they were divorced or not. All I know is that I was told they were. I took him at his word, and I would like to believe it was worth something. It's assinine, to think that way, but if I don't have trust and faith, what do I have? nothing...