Today has been a strange day
It had me thinking
of things that might have been
but weren't
I was sad most of the day
and my mood has been blue
for a few days now....
so as I drove home,
I was thinking of one of the greatest loves of my life
and I stopped in a spot where we first spent a good amount of time together
I thought about ordering
"the usual"
and then realized
that even though
the tried and true "usual"
would be good
it is time for a change
so I ordered the "new"
item on the menu
brought it home and
ate it and reminisced
The first great love of my life
Paul W.
I was working at a
Schlotsky's Sandwich Shop
in Amarillo Texas.
He was working at one of the other
Schlotsky's in town
and the shop I worked at
was the one where all the
baking of the buns
for all the stores was done.
So at the end of the day
the other stores called and gave
a "bun count"
so the baker would know
how many buns to bake
Paul is the one who would call
from his shop
and I talked to him daily
I hadn't met him
and I had worked there for 2-3 months
Everyone kept telling me
that we would be dating if we met
and everyone at his shop said the same thing
then it happened
we had a chance to meet
and it was pretty much
a done deal
I lost my virginity to him
I loved him
and really thought we would always be together
but we weren't
He broke up with me
on my 18th birthday
That really sucked...
and an omen of what was to come
so today
I stopped and got
an "Italiano" sandwich
rather than an "original"
with BBQ chips and tea
and I thought of Paul
and others
and knew,
that as the pain that took me 3 years
to recover from
is similar to recent pain
that is months old
and I am hoping not to take
one year, much less 3 to recover from
but now,
now my thoughts of Paul
are fond
and I smiled as I reminisced
about our time
at work
and with each other
in bed and out
I don't fall in love easily
but when I do
I fall hard
so here I am, pulling myself up
off the floor
from falling on my face
but I know
I will overcome
and great things will come to me
because I have before
and I will again...
sometimes it is ok to take a trip
down Memory Lane...
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
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