Bloggers and Expressing Yourself

When I first started blogging I met
two great bloggers
Roxxy and Alex Trex
Now,
I know little of either
and a great deal about both
Our time together was brief,
but we had a great time together
at a time
I believe
when we all needed to laugh
and have fun

and we did

Alex stopped blogging
because he cared too much
too much about what other people thought

now, granted
he is very attractive
in writing and wit
he is caring
and loving and
I believe
that we all
I mean, everyone who read his blog

had a crush on him....

yes, me too

but I hid it,

because I knew it would never be more
for one reason...

he had a list of what he wanted in a woman
and I didn't fit it
and he is much younger than me...lol

anyway, he had some stalkers
via internet
and it made his blogging life no fun at all

and so
he quit
then shortly after
Roxxy told a story from her life
that was very intense
and sad
and then she quit blogging

and in the months that followed,
at times, I missed them both terribly...

I missed the fun,
the made up new words,
like
edumacation

and sometimes I even asked
Alex Trex Where are you...


and then as my life turned to mush last spring,
he reaapeared
in emails to me
trying to cheer me up
which was great
but guys,
he doesn't mince words
and he
like RJ,
would love to get his hands
on the man who broke my heart
or at least give him an earful.

And then a few weeks ago

Roxxy appeared in comments
I am so glad you are back Roxxy,
I know it won't be like it was before
but I do read
and I am glad
you stop by to read me.

I don't know what has happened to Roxxy over
the last year...
but here, Roxxy,

without being too revealing,
is what happened to Alex Trex

as I know it.

He married the woman he had just met on a plane
when we were all blogging.
She fit the list
and from what I can tell,
via email and what her comments are
through his emails,
she is very good for him.

They are trying to prepare to have children
and this is sometimes a difficult journey,
but I know it will all work out.
They both still travel the world for work
and when he is out of country,
there is not much contact.

He still cares about total strangers
and asks for advice for them

Me? give advice, Fuck, I can't even handle my own shit...

but I still say what I think,
and he still doesn't mince words.

Another blogger
and he knows who knows who he is,
has recently contemplated giving up blogging
when given much
shit over his thoughts on the screen
and I would hate to not
have his wonderful stories
heartwrenching stories
trials
tribulations
and celebrations to share
through what he writes

so the way I see it,
if you don't like what someone is writing
and you don't like what you are reading
You have a choice,
don't read it
Move on
leave them alone

I have said time and time again
this is my blog
I will say what I wish
I may leave names out
due to other's requests
but
I will not stop writing
or hide
or move...

AND NEITHER SHOULD YOU...

I am glad Roxxy is back
I am glad that people do come here and read
sometimes more comments might make me
think more about my writing,
but other than that,

It is all good...

Express Yourself my blogger friends
Express yourself
and I will be here
to read and encourage
and I hope you will do the same.

As for the lurkers,
Welcome,
You are welcome anytime,
feel free to comment
or not.

Best of wishes to Alex Trex
and his journey through life
with a great woman by his side

I can't wait til there are baby pictures,
next year or the next,
but you better send them.

Tomorrow Will Be Better is what I was told...

I hope so...

I am ready for things to be better

maybe the change of scenery

the hike, the time alone,

the time with loved ones

will make it better.

I take the big bird tomorrow,

will be gone for awhile,

and if some had their way

I would never return,

but I will...

just not as soon as I would like,

and yet sooner than is possibly best for me.

Officially, my summer has come to an end.

Today was the last day...

a deadline of sorts,

and now,
as hard as today has been,
it is over...

I will rise again, for

I AM BENNU.

All Good Things Must Come to an End

Sometimes

for a brief amount of time
great things can happen to a person
just a glimpse in the space time continuem
and then they are gone.

Such is my life

Ever since the end of May
I have had the pleasure of
enjoying a growth
that has truly surprised me
and delighted me
and today,

today the end is in sight

I know it will not last another week or two

I have done everything I could
I have taken precautions
to prolong the inevitable

I have taken time just to observe
and enjoy and revel in the glory
of the miracle
in my life each and every day

I even enlisted others to help me
to pamper
care for
and extend the life

of

my fingernails

Yes, boys and girls,

they grew very long over the summer

I had two manicures

which were great

and then it happened,

I broke one

I know not how,

I noticed it in the shower

I filed it and moved on

then another broke

and today,

today the longest one

my pinkie

showed me that it was too

broken...

it is only a matter of time

and they will all be short again

enduring the torture

I put them through on a daily basis

and with 22 5 year olds keeping me on my toes.

It is a sad sad day...


but the memories,

the memories will bring a smile to my face each time I think about the summer I had long fingernails.

I Have Created a Monster

Nearly every day I have been going to the pool

You know, 1 or 2 pm

staying til 6 or so

anyway, today I had to stay in my room and work
and I suddenly noticed how sleepy, well not really sleepy
but sluggish I felt
I looked at the clock and it was
1 pm,

I hadn't had lunch,
but I had a huge muffin
for breakfast

but man, I was was ready to lay down and read

and I couldn't
and in a few short weeks,

I won't be able to at all...

thank goodness I teach kinder,
we get a nap the first semester

I will be cured
by Christmas

but I can promise you that
I will still be in the pool
every day after school
as long as I can

The muse said today
I was becoming a recluse

Uh.. what?

I go out in public
wearing a swimsuit

I can't help it
if the public doesn't
show up at the pool... lol

Whatever Wednesday

Slept with my windows open last night,

It was cloudy yesterday so

it wasn't too hot

I got a decent night's sleep for once

in a long time.

Today,

well the same day as usual, almost

Walk,

grocery shop

work at school

sit by the pool all afternoon

and tonight...

hmmm I might actually cook

a wonderful dinner for myself

Someone was bbq'ing last night
and it really made me hungry for some real food

so we will see.

Have a great Wednesday,
Whatever you do.

Pool Passes available on request.

*(I am about to finish reading the 5th book of the summer, woohoo)

Hello, My Name is Bennu, and I am addicted...

to my swimming pool...lol

Today's List

Work in my classroom.... check (although I may never feel like I am getting much accomplished)

Eat lunch with RJ... check

Go to the pool for the afternoon...

I AM SO THERE>>>>

And

Go for my walk this evening...


Biggest decision today

hmmm what swimsuit will I wear today... ?

I already know I will take the Twister towel...lol

Have a great day!!!

pool passes available on request...

Bennu- World Traveler

My passport arrived today

I am so excited!!!

I didn't think I would be, but
I AM

Thank you, to the one

who suggested I get it

so that when I do have an

opportunity to travel overseas

I can take it, right away.

That little bit of mail

made a disappointing day

a much better one.

Happy Birthday to My Blog... albeit belated

My blog is one year old
well, one year and two days

the date escaped me
I have been doing good to remember
what day of the week it is

of course that will all change this next week
when I have places to be
and people expecting me


well wish my blog well,

I am off for a day with a man
who drove hundreds of miles,
just to see me

and tomorrow?

well tomorrow
I am driving to see
Mr. Duvall...
she smiles from ear to ear
and shrugs her shoulders with delight

Have a great weekend all,

I am due one.

Nothing is Certain

Broke my regular routine today.

Usually I go walking, which I did today.

Then I work on something or read, or
eat lunch

Then I go to the pool.

Today

well today,

I got up two hours earlier than usual

went for my walk

then went to school

to prepare my room for the new year

I had some help

RJ's teenage daughter, the dancer

came along.

We worked for about 4 hours, then

we went to the fabric store

and to eat Chinese food

My fortune doesn't really work with my favorite ending

It was

Be patient: In time, even an egg will walk. ... in bed?

well if it is talking about my eggs...well maybe, but

it just doesn't work as well as the Dancer's

which was

The only certainty is that nothing is certain... in bed...

NOW that I like, or maybe I don't...sometimes things are disappointing...in bed

and out.


Oh, and then I went to the pool for the rest of the afternoon...

Simply Nirvana

Today's List

Walk... did that
Grocery shop... did that
Take all the stuff out of the bottom shelves in the kitchen so the plumber can run the line for my icemaker.... did that
Buy a water filter for the icemaker.... did that
Lay out by the pool and read....

I AM SO THERE>...

pool passes available on request...

How to Recover From a Broken Heart

Get out of bed

Go for a 4 mile walk

Sit by the pool 2-4 hours a day

read mystery novels at the pool or inside where it is cool

eat dinner

watch tv

go to sleep

REPEAT
as needed

(so far it has been more than a month, and I am still not there, but I am working on it)

Technology- Friend or Foe?

Sometimes technology is my friend

Many times technology is my foe

Today it is the latter

So today's rant ensues

I have a dead Nikon camera

It has been dead for a year

My mom let me borrow her Sony last fall
I had it until Christmas, then I returned it

At school we have Sony's also

I have a very nice memory stick
It obviously only works with Sony's

I need a camera for personal use and
for school use

I am thinking

Hey, get a Sony, then you can use
that fancy stick and the card reader that goes with it

So today, in the mood to look at cameras
I venture to my less than favorite store
Best Buy
I do,
amazingly enough
get a great young lady that actually knows her cameras

I explain my dilemma
She informs me
None of the new Sonys use the memory stick that I have

They have a new fancy one,
A short one
Not a long one

*what? we went from long to short, that's not normal :)

anyway, long story short
I have a new "cheap" camera
with a new memory stick
a mail in rebate
and 20 dollars from some online flower shop (first week of school will be a good time to send myself flowers)

and a memory stick I can only use with a school camera,
which I started with.

It is all a ploy

A ploy to make us spend more money

for things that if they made them work together

we wouldn't need new ones (memory sticks)


The UPSIDE:

I can take pictures to post, which is part of what I have been wanting to do as well as use the camera at work.

BONUS: I think I wrote this entire post without one expletive... woo hoo...

Impending Doom

That feeling that something bad is about to happen and nothing you do can stop it.. yeah

I have had that for more than a day

Then today, it all came together

First it is the 11th and

one or more of you may know what that means

Second, my youngest child is once again

in trouble with the law

and I have to accompany him and his father

in court,

in August,

Right before I have to be at work the next day

now, I teach,

how fucked up is that? they could have had it anytime in June or July

and the day would not be a problem

but no, they chose to schedule it

one day before I am suppose to be at a faculty retreat

so I will be taking the
big bird in the sky

and not eating lunch for a semester. *plane tickets are expensive

so, to work off my

upsettedness (yes, a new word)

I did the dishes, yeah I know

I should have done them yesterday,

have I told you how much I hate washing dishes alone?

anyway, now I am off to find a floaty thing to sit on

in my POOL and

then I am spending the rest of the day

in my POOL.

Hopefully all the impending doom that is going to occur

has
and the rest of the day will be a relaxing one...

come on over and go for a dip...

pool passes available here.

Just a little Bragging and What my Day has in Store for Me

As of today I have gone

ONE WEEK

without drinking a Diet Coke
or any other carbonated beverage

woo hoo

My dentist will be so proud of me

Now, if I write a rant or two, you should be completely understanding...lol



Today, well here's the list

grocery shopping
laundry
finish Gap Creek, a book I have not enjoyed at all
continue reading suspense novel
sit by the pool after THEY clean it
clean out my refrigerator
clean my kitchen

now that sounds like a full day, but you know the majority of the time will be spent by the pool, or in the pool, as the case may be.

Have a great day everyone,

even you, the fellow who sings Happy Birthday like Mickey Mouse, if you are lurking around out there.

Gone Swimming

In MY POOL...

Life is good!!!

Yeah it is...;)

My Pool ROCKS

Today

Today I spent

Today I spent two and a half hours

at MY POOL

Well

yeah

it is a pool for the whole apt. complex

but I was the only one there


so it was like

My Pool

I sat in the lounge chair

I read my book

I drank my tea

I swam in the pool

I sat with my feet in the water

I got some sun

I enjoyed the quiet

I played in the water

I swam in the pool

I read my book

I drank my tea

I floated in the pool



and the best part...



the best part is

I DON"T HAVE TO

CLEAN IT

So all the perks of having your own pool

WITHOUT

paying for the water bill

having to clean the pool

having to maintain the pool


MY POOL ROCKS...

Come on over and go for a swim

A Glorious Ending to a Glorious Day

AS some of you know,
I read Savage Chickens every day.
I hadn't looked at today's,
because,

I have been busy

It has been a great day

First my 4 mile daily walk

yes, I really do
walk 4 miles every day

Today is the 3rd day in a row that

I HAVE NOT
had a DIET COKE

hold your applause til the end

I chose to take RJ's advice

and jump the guy that lives across from me...

oh wait that wasn't the one
at least not the advice I took
at least not yet

ok, ok, I went for

a manicure of my very own nails
a miracle in itself
they have grown so much since school was out

and no manual labor to mess them up,
like pool cleaning

*I bet he misses that... someone to clean the pool

oops.. sorry, sidetracked

anyway,

A manicure
and
A pedicure

by a man named David

Who also gave me a great
massage

my hands and feet of course

my back is too sunburned for a full body massage just yet

unless it is Mr. Duvall giving the massage ;)

Oh.. ok, back to the story

This evening was spent with my good friend
RJ

and his daughter

We had a great dinner at a musical dive
and then
we went to see

The Devil Wears Prada

movie review to follow tomorrow,

have to let it stew a bit...

so then I come home,

sit down to check email from

well...

I am not suppose to mention his name

and his initials are the same as some other initials

I am not suppose to mention...

but none the less, a very
nice email from
a very good friend

and then?

Well then I checked Savage Chickens

and it cracked me up,
on a personal level,

seeing as how the title is the nickname of my exhusband

and the blurb makes me think

of Walker trying to get his papers
to be able to come to the US

Enjoy!!!



Now you can applaud

UPDATE: The Pool Rant

The pool is gorgeous
The water is clear
and clean
and the decking around the pool
well, the decking is a cement like substance
that is not hot on your feet

I am feeling much better about things now..

I am sure I have something else to rant about now...

Like the degradation of our country...

but that will be another day...

I am going to the pool..

Words of Wisdom

Two weird days, yesterday and today.
Can't really pinpoint it
but it is like something is happening that I have no control over
and yet it will impact me greatly.
Every once in awhile I have these days...
so when I checked my horoscope yesterday,
just out of curiousity

it said:

You have control over most of the elements in your life right now,

but a few are still beyond your capacity to deal with.

This may be a very frustrating fact, but it's a fact nonetheless.

Try to look upon this loss of control as a freeing thing --
just let go and watch things happen for a while.
There is a good change coming soon
that could trigger a major turning point.
It's all about being a passive spectator until it comes.
Enjoy the show and roll with the punches.

And then today, there was another one
it said:

The best way to deal with the drama you've been dealing with is to just let it go.

It's time to get some healing done
for your psyche and your body.
The two are more closely related than you would think.
Find ways to address your physical needs through spiritual means.

so even if you don't believe in them, which I don't particularly, I always think it is interesting.

Happy 4th of July

Ok, so I am a day early
but I won't be here tomorrow
or the next day

but I will be back.

I did tell Walker where I was going
have to be safe and let someone know
where you are

Anyway,

here a few picture clues