While at the dentist with my tooth emergency, I learned something I knew I was going to hear sometime, but was ignoring.
She said the worst thing I could be drinking was soda.
I love Diet Coke, it was, yes was, my only vice (or at least the only major one).
I have been trying my best to not drink them... of course Starbucks is making good money off of me each morning. I am scared of what my day will be like without my caffeine fix.
Honestly I thought I would truly be in withdrawals, acting like a bitch (moreso than usual) and unbearable (moreso than usual)... but actually
I have been great without them, and feel better throughout the day...
Of course, now I have to find a way to not have a Venti Chai Tea Latte with whipped cream every morning too.. but figured it was a good first step in my step down off carbonated sodas.
Or I should buy a Starbucks Franchise and become the Queen Barrista (not sure how to spell that one, but you get the idea).
Anyway, I can now really sit down and drink one diet coke (a week) and enjoy it like it is the most decadent dessert....
Now if I can find a replacement for oatmeal for lunch and soup for dinner... I miss the munching of chewing a good meal, eating a Cheesy Jane Burger or a Der Dog.
Man, I wish they would just pull all my teeth and give me false ones... Then I guess I would still have trouble with burgers... oh well, put it in a blender... or go on a full time liquid diet... at this point that is a good idea.
I have to go to bed now... I am rambling...
Thursday, February 02, 2006
More Strangeness
Last Sunday I went to brunch with another online date. The Hedonist... now don't get the wrong idea just yet. The offer has been made on his part, and as much as I would like to, I have not taken him up on it as yet.
Why? Why? Why?
He has a lifestyle that is difficult for me to pinpoint how it works. It is in the realm of Adult Entertainment, and it has been very good to him monetarily. There have obviously been hundreds of women, that were from Sporting participants to wives. It is a big pill to swallow and I am not sure I care to.
Men wonder why we don't just have sex if we want to, when they make the move. I wonder the same thing. For me, I tie emotions to it, even when I think I can do it for sport, and I know it isn't good for my well-being. I end up with my feelings hurt and am offended by the "don't take it personally" comment that has been made to me.
There are a few other prospects, but as Trapped In Colorado says, Dating in February sucks...
I will see the Hedonist again, as he has said we can still hang out, but let him know if I change my mind. I will never change my mind about being involved in a Swingers situation... it doesn't appeal to me at all...
Rolling around for two days straight, in a king size bed and eating and drinking and taking each other in.. .that appeals to me, but with other people around...no, don't want to trade off etx...
I know it is a bit spotty, I can't really tell the whole tale, but what I have said is enough...
I have had an epiphany.... I meet men thinking they are the "one" for me, based on preliminary prospects, and then I get to know them. I may like them when I get to know them, but they are never what I had in my head.
What happened to meeting men accidentally by association or at a usual stop in your daily life and they aren't even considered someone you would be interested in, and then you get to know them and they show themselves to you and you know they are the "one" ? I miss that concept.... but in the age of instant gratification....
oh well....
Why? Why? Why?
He has a lifestyle that is difficult for me to pinpoint how it works. It is in the realm of Adult Entertainment, and it has been very good to him monetarily. There have obviously been hundreds of women, that were from Sporting participants to wives. It is a big pill to swallow and I am not sure I care to.
Men wonder why we don't just have sex if we want to, when they make the move. I wonder the same thing. For me, I tie emotions to it, even when I think I can do it for sport, and I know it isn't good for my well-being. I end up with my feelings hurt and am offended by the "don't take it personally" comment that has been made to me.
There are a few other prospects, but as Trapped In Colorado says, Dating in February sucks...
I will see the Hedonist again, as he has said we can still hang out, but let him know if I change my mind. I will never change my mind about being involved in a Swingers situation... it doesn't appeal to me at all...
Rolling around for two days straight, in a king size bed and eating and drinking and taking each other in.. .that appeals to me, but with other people around...no, don't want to trade off etx...
I know it is a bit spotty, I can't really tell the whole tale, but what I have said is enough...
I have had an epiphany.... I meet men thinking they are the "one" for me, based on preliminary prospects, and then I get to know them. I may like them when I get to know them, but they are never what I had in my head.
What happened to meeting men accidentally by association or at a usual stop in your daily life and they aren't even considered someone you would be interested in, and then you get to know them and they show themselves to you and you know they are the "one" ? I miss that concept.... but in the age of instant gratification....
oh well....
Friday, January 27, 2006
I WAS SAD I HAD NO SHOES...
UNTIL I MET A MAN WHO HAD NO FEET. Nearly everyday I seem to have something to be upset about in my life. However, I want you all to know that I do count my blessings as well. I realize I am much luckier than some and even though there are things lacking in my life, there are many that are great. Having a close relationship with my mom is one of them. Now for the sad news about my friend RJ. RJ's mom is dying... he is there, he has been upset for weeks, and I didn't realize just how bad it was until a few days ago. Her illness has lingered since before I met him last year. I feel bad being upset about a tooth when I think about what it would be like to lose my mother. I lost my dad when I was 22, so I do know the loss of a parent, but none could be greater in my mind than your mother. So a few moments of silence to show how much I care for this great friend and his loss. I wish you enough...
Three Freaky Dreams....
First I dreamt that I had a man laying over me, crouched on my bed, with a fabric sash or some such ready to strangle me. I laid there, pretending to be asleep, screaming in my head for him to go away, thinking that if he didn't think I woke up, he would leave. Then I woke up and realized it was a dream. I could feel the pressure from his body still on my legs. No, I couldn't go back to sleep for a long time. That was at 1 am.
Then I dreamt I was in a bar, and it was a familiar place, but a dreamy place, not a real one I know. I sat and drank and visited with one woman at the bar, then another in the restroom, where there was a big goldfish in the toliet bowl. The toliet bowl was a huge glass fish bowl, and you had to sit right about the fish on a clear seat. Then I visited with another woman who apprently knew me, but I didn't know her. I saw my exhusband, my step children, etc. It was very odd. Then someone asked me if I was having a good time, and if I liked the women I had talked to, and I said yeah it was fine. Oh, don't you know this is a lesbian bar? lol... uh no, but my ex being here doesn't surprise me now...lol
The third one is deeply embedded in my pysche... my phone rang, I answered it, and it was the too often mentioned man singing....
ok, it is now Friday and as soon as I get home I am having an Diet RC with rum and lime...
Better dreams on the way...
oh and have I mentioned my latest fortune cookie...? it said
AN UNUSUAL DREAM WILL COME TRUE and with my favorite ending of "in bed"
guess that was the dreaming part of it...
Then I dreamt I was in a bar, and it was a familiar place, but a dreamy place, not a real one I know. I sat and drank and visited with one woman at the bar, then another in the restroom, where there was a big goldfish in the toliet bowl. The toliet bowl was a huge glass fish bowl, and you had to sit right about the fish on a clear seat. Then I visited with another woman who apprently knew me, but I didn't know her. I saw my exhusband, my step children, etc. It was very odd. Then someone asked me if I was having a good time, and if I liked the women I had talked to, and I said yeah it was fine. Oh, don't you know this is a lesbian bar? lol... uh no, but my ex being here doesn't surprise me now...lol
The third one is deeply embedded in my pysche... my phone rang, I answered it, and it was the too often mentioned man singing....
ok, it is now Friday and as soon as I get home I am having an Diet RC with rum and lime...
Better dreams on the way...
oh and have I mentioned my latest fortune cookie...? it said
AN UNUSUAL DREAM WILL COME TRUE and with my favorite ending of "in bed"
guess that was the dreaming part of it...
Thursday, January 26, 2006
I have done it before
And I would do it again. I would follow you into the belly of a snake... as long as we were both there. Of course, the belly of a snake might be a bit different than a hiking trail that should be a 1o minute hike and turns into an entire morning, or the wrong way to Hamilton Pool. Of course, I would also tell you that you are right, because most of the time you are...
You? hmmmm, that has yet to be determined (who you is)
You? hmmmm, that has yet to be determined (who you is)
Walls
On my birthday, the previous, not to be named, MAN, who I am trying to "move on" or "get passed" sent me a text message. He was very sweetly and goofily singing Happy Birthday in his rendition of Mickey Mouseketeer music and Goofy's voice. Of course it was all text, and the effects had to be imagined... But I knew it was meant to be a light, innocent version of birthday wishes....
It came on one of the BAD days... The few really bad days that occur in life. He was there for another, the day I had my knee surgery and that was the next thought that came to mind. When I was almost in tears with the thought of going into surgery by myself, with no one there, he showed up. There were delays and we waited and waited and waited, and yet, he stayed, he didn't leave, he didn't even act like he needed to leave, even though I know he did. That, in itself, even though, even THEN, I knew we would never see our relationship to fruition, meant the world to me.
About a month before that, when we ran into each other and ended up sitting and talking for hours, I was astounded at what I learned. This man sat across from me and told me I was not the only one who had feelings, but he never, never, expressed what feelings he had.
His text message tells me that it may be just as hard for him to let it go as well. All I can say, is that if he did express true feelings, I would welcome him into my life without judgment and with open arms.
I can also say that if he isn't going to come into my life, for all the pain it causes to have him in the fringes and keeping me from truly moving on... I wish he would just get out.
I saw a post card on another blog today that fits me to a T. Here it is.
Monday, January 23, 2006
The Curse is Broken... I hope
Happy Birthday to me... it is officially the "new" worst one of my life.
Ummmm the new one you ask? yes, the original worst birthday was my eighteenth birthday. The worst one was the one you became legal? to drink, to have sex, to vote? yes, it was. My first and strongest love, the first man I gave myself to, broke my heart on my birthday by breaking up with me. That is the shorter than Reader's Digest Version.
Ever since then I have guarded my birthdays and made sure they were safe, if not fun. Many were fun, some were grand, and last year was the best by far in many many years.... only to be followed by the worst.
I was determined to have a great day today. The plan was to go to school, see all my little lovelies, who were all ready to wish me a grand birthday, some bearing gifts... I mean... no one gets what a birthday should be, like a 5 year old. We baked a cake in the room, we ate lunch in the room, we ate the cake and they sang to me... my two favorite teachers were there and we laughed and enjoyed and the adults teased me by asking the students how old I was. Then I told the students I was 17 and they ate it hook line and sinker...
Then, at 12:20 I was biting tape, to tear it, and my front tooth broke off. No, the cap didn't come off, the tooth literally broke off at the gum line. By 2 I was in a dentist's office, my students were in capable hands after I explained my teeth don't grow back in like theirs do. I was there and then at an endodontist until after 7 pm.
So much for my night out with Amused Muse.... I had to have a root canal re done. Which means they drill out the old one before putting in the new one. A temporary fake tooth, just for looks was inserted and will have to be replaced. What they will do then is a post will be inserted into the root cavity, attached to a fake tooth and cemented in my jaw.
Have I ever told you my aversion to dentists? I wish they would just pull all my teeth, then I could give great head, and not have to sell my soul to pay the dentist, or endure the pain they inflict, which is just as, if not more, mentally painful as it is physically.
So no, 5 hours and just as much bawling as I did (initially) over Paul, in a dentist office is not 2nd or 3rd worst, it is THE worst birthday of my life thusfar.
Goodnight all, a xanax, 800 mg motrin and a muscle relaxer will have me good as new in the moring for ....
what else...?
CLASS PICTURES.
Ummmm the new one you ask? yes, the original worst birthday was my eighteenth birthday. The worst one was the one you became legal? to drink, to have sex, to vote? yes, it was. My first and strongest love, the first man I gave myself to, broke my heart on my birthday by breaking up with me. That is the shorter than Reader's Digest Version.
Ever since then I have guarded my birthdays and made sure they were safe, if not fun. Many were fun, some were grand, and last year was the best by far in many many years.... only to be followed by the worst.
I was determined to have a great day today. The plan was to go to school, see all my little lovelies, who were all ready to wish me a grand birthday, some bearing gifts... I mean... no one gets what a birthday should be, like a 5 year old. We baked a cake in the room, we ate lunch in the room, we ate the cake and they sang to me... my two favorite teachers were there and we laughed and enjoyed and the adults teased me by asking the students how old I was. Then I told the students I was 17 and they ate it hook line and sinker...
Then, at 12:20 I was biting tape, to tear it, and my front tooth broke off. No, the cap didn't come off, the tooth literally broke off at the gum line. By 2 I was in a dentist's office, my students were in capable hands after I explained my teeth don't grow back in like theirs do. I was there and then at an endodontist until after 7 pm.
So much for my night out with Amused Muse.... I had to have a root canal re done. Which means they drill out the old one before putting in the new one. A temporary fake tooth, just for looks was inserted and will have to be replaced. What they will do then is a post will be inserted into the root cavity, attached to a fake tooth and cemented in my jaw.
Have I ever told you my aversion to dentists? I wish they would just pull all my teeth, then I could give great head, and not have to sell my soul to pay the dentist, or endure the pain they inflict, which is just as, if not more, mentally painful as it is physically.
So no, 5 hours and just as much bawling as I did (initially) over Paul, in a dentist office is not 2nd or 3rd worst, it is THE worst birthday of my life thusfar.
Goodnight all, a xanax, 800 mg motrin and a muscle relaxer will have me good as new in the moring for ....
what else...?
CLASS PICTURES.
Freaky Birthday Eve
Yesterday, between when RJ and went to eat brunch and when I left for grocery shopping someone decided to steal some stuff out of my backyard. I had two sets of folding, solid wood, doors leaning up against my kayak, which was upside down on my workbench. Given, they were put there hastily when I moved in. I have been working so hard on the inside of my new place I had not done anything behind the apt. Needless to say, they went away in a puff of smoke, and I was scared the kayak would be next. RJ came over and loaded up the kayak to store it in his garage. I continued on to do my grocery shopping. When I returned, I walked around the building toward my front door and one of my japanese lanterns was shattered all over the sidewalk in front of my house. It could have fallen over, it rained yesterday, it was leaning a bit, the top alone weighs over 60 lbs and it is over 4 ft tall and all cement. It was to say the least, Freaky... I didn't sleep well and now I am not big on going out and coming home alone late after I have been drinking... not over drinking, just drinking... I may just come home this evening...
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Dusting Myself Off and Getting Back in the Game
Trapped suggested that I not let the thing with KJ bother me and to move on. Good advice... so I did. Went fishing on the personals site, found an interesting looking/sounding guy, wrote a short note. Heard back from him right away with a phone number... hmmmm I am getting hungry, think I will call and see if he asks me to lunch... he did, we went where I was wanting to go, I ate what I wanted to eat. Things were going along fine til he informed me that he didn't agree with my choice in knee surgeons. Said, in this really condescending tone, "why did you pick him? that isn't his specialty... why didn't you research who should do it?" etc. Then that happened about several other things... and I just kept thinking... Lunch will be over soon, eat faster.
I will give him this, he had table manners, most of the men I meet have forgotten how to eat at the table with other people or they just don't care that they look like a hyena eating a lioness and throw food all over.
Oh, and then I came home, did some more fishing, found another one that looked like Burt Reynolds in his early days (hey, he was very handsome, and quite the catch) and sent him an instant message. WE talked a bit, but he wanted nude photos and couldn't wait to show me his....
UH NO! I don't have any nude photos... good God people I am a teacher, I can't afford to have incriminating stuff on the internet or anywhere else... I mean... I am pushing the envelope letting parents give me gifts of Rum, rum balls, bottles of coffee liquer... I can't help it if they truly understand what it is like to spend your entire day with 5 year olds...
Today, well today, I think I will just hang out and not go fishing... wait for a day when the good ones are biting, or I am up for another strange adventure...
Being alone, it isn't bad, it just takes major adjustment... I am adjusting...
I will give him this, he had table manners, most of the men I meet have forgotten how to eat at the table with other people or they just don't care that they look like a hyena eating a lioness and throw food all over.
Oh, and then I came home, did some more fishing, found another one that looked like Burt Reynolds in his early days (hey, he was very handsome, and quite the catch) and sent him an instant message. WE talked a bit, but he wanted nude photos and couldn't wait to show me his....
UH NO! I don't have any nude photos... good God people I am a teacher, I can't afford to have incriminating stuff on the internet or anywhere else... I mean... I am pushing the envelope letting parents give me gifts of Rum, rum balls, bottles of coffee liquer... I can't help it if they truly understand what it is like to spend your entire day with 5 year olds...
Today, well today, I think I will just hang out and not go fishing... wait for a day when the good ones are biting, or I am up for another strange adventure...
Being alone, it isn't bad, it just takes major adjustment... I am adjusting...
Friday, January 20, 2006
Birthday Dinner with RJ
Tonight RJ took me to one of my favorite Chinese Restaurants, but not PF Changs, due to what the wait would be... at 8 in the evening. Anyway, the duck was great (Duck for my birthday dinner with RJ, yum) and despite the day was the DAY FROM HELL, we had a very nice dinner.
My day from hell started with the Bitches across the hall (coworkers, I won't even consider them colleagues) and ended with the rejection of kayakjak.
At the end of the meal, my fortune cookie arrived with the apropos message of:
You need a new environment- go on a vacation.
My day from hell started with the Bitches across the hall (coworkers, I won't even consider them colleagues) and ended with the rejection of kayakjak.
At the end of the meal, my fortune cookie arrived with the apropos message of:
You need a new environment- go on a vacation.
GEEEZZZZ LOUISE>>>>
Calgon Take me away.
Throw me a curve ball why don't ya...
well boys and girls, kayakjak cooked dinner for me, spaghetti no less. My least favorite meal and yet it was a great meal, the spaghetti was possibly the best I have ever had. I enjoyed his company but was dismayed at some things that were lacking in the conversation/actions on his part. Even though he seemed glad to see me, gave me reasons to think I would be seeing a great deal of him in the future and made plans with me for the weekend. Needless to say, he was feeling the same "lack" of something or something similar, or had a change of heart. He chose to give me the shaft today... stating he just didn't see it working out down the road. Not real sure why, but I appreciated the honesty. Oh well, .... NEXT....
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
KayakJak
Take notes boys and girls... when the date starts at 2 in the afternoon for lunch, and turns into lunch, a walk, a movie, dinner, a drive and a walk to your car... it is a GOOD date.
He's Tall, He's funny, there is never a dull moment and we talked and talked and talked. The perfect gentleman, who let me know he was interested with his light touch while holding my hand. We were very comfortable with each other, and he has now invited me for dinner at his place later this week...
My fellow blogger thinks it is a ploy to make his 'move'... what do you think? Here is a pic of him a little bit younger, the shoulders look broad, but man, you should see them in person...
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Internet Dating
Ok boys and girls, last year when I gave this a shot all the men were named David... I gave them nicknames, and this year...
this year most of them are called Scott. I am giving them nicknames as well.
Yes, there has been some nibbles on my fishing line. Then again I have nibbled on some lines that have been dropped down in front of me.
There is kayakjak, he is looking really interesting. Likes to kayak, likes sports, understands my knee injury, the conversation is interesting and flows and he asked for my phone number. We have exchanged several photos, and he knows all aobut my kayak and what I need for it, and we have discussed an adventure out on the water. Those of you who know me well... well, let's just say that you know that is very appealing to me.
There is Mr. Bean (not a cut, just happens he is an accountant), who has sent several emails, but the jury is still out. Hasn't said much, except status, kids, work, and location. Which are all things I don't usually ask right away. I like to enjoy my dinner conversation without having the routine rundown of status. Not that it is a bad thing, I don't mind him sharing, but I don't ask it. I don't define a man by his vocation.
There is the Phoenix, yeah, another form of the Bennu, so that could be interesting. Chatted with him online before he took off for a weekend in Big Bend... have tentative plans to meet next Wednesday. A date for sure, and Wednesday is probably the best day, he is going to call when he gets back.
Then there is Mr. Enigma, whose profile shows him to be in SA, but when he writes back, my info shows him to be in the UK/Ireland. He asks short, one line questions, and one at a time... it is somewhat interesting and intriguing but is an enigma just the same...
What can I say, it is feast or famine and when you first go into online dating it goes well for a bit, then dies off... or so it has with me in the past.
So if Trapped reads this, as another one in the boat of online dating, let me know what you think.
this year most of them are called Scott. I am giving them nicknames as well.
Yes, there has been some nibbles on my fishing line. Then again I have nibbled on some lines that have been dropped down in front of me.
There is kayakjak, he is looking really interesting. Likes to kayak, likes sports, understands my knee injury, the conversation is interesting and flows and he asked for my phone number. We have exchanged several photos, and he knows all aobut my kayak and what I need for it, and we have discussed an adventure out on the water. Those of you who know me well... well, let's just say that you know that is very appealing to me.
There is Mr. Bean (not a cut, just happens he is an accountant), who has sent several emails, but the jury is still out. Hasn't said much, except status, kids, work, and location. Which are all things I don't usually ask right away. I like to enjoy my dinner conversation without having the routine rundown of status. Not that it is a bad thing, I don't mind him sharing, but I don't ask it. I don't define a man by his vocation.
There is the Phoenix, yeah, another form of the Bennu, so that could be interesting. Chatted with him online before he took off for a weekend in Big Bend... have tentative plans to meet next Wednesday. A date for sure, and Wednesday is probably the best day, he is going to call when he gets back.
Then there is Mr. Enigma, whose profile shows him to be in SA, but when he writes back, my info shows him to be in the UK/Ireland. He asks short, one line questions, and one at a time... it is somewhat interesting and intriguing but is an enigma just the same...
What can I say, it is feast or famine and when you first go into online dating it goes well for a bit, then dies off... or so it has with me in the past.
So if Trapped reads this, as another one in the boat of online dating, let me know what you think.
Woo Hoo It's Saturday!!!
It isn't like I am going to have a funfilled, carefree weekend, I have many things to do. However, I am going to enjoy getting my house in order.
There is something fun about going to the laundromat ... ONCE< it won't be as fun the next time or the hundredth time, but the first time, when you haven't been in years is an experience.
Today I have already unpacked 4 boxes, and am still working on it.
Then there is a trip to the bookstore for books for teaching the short i sound.
I think that is a day full, including cleaning the bathroom. Woo Hoo... It is Saturday... the sun is shining and I am working... It's all Good.
There is something fun about going to the laundromat ... ONCE< it won't be as fun the next time or the hundredth time, but the first time, when you haven't been in years is an experience.
Today I have already unpacked 4 boxes, and am still working on it.
Then there is a trip to the bookstore for books for teaching the short i sound.
I think that is a day full, including cleaning the bathroom. Woo Hoo... It is Saturday... the sun is shining and I am working... It's all Good.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Today's List from 4pm on
Wash dishes
Carry out trash
meeting with friend
yoga 6:15-7:15
organize bedroom/bathroom somewhat (know it won't be finished)
start reading new book, The Time Traveler's Wife
Get a good night's sleep
Done, Done and Done ;) got them all, for once...
Carry out trash
meeting with friend
yoga 6:15-7:15
organize bedroom/bathroom somewhat (know it won't be finished)
start reading new book, The Time Traveler's Wife
Get a good night's sleep
Done, Done and Done ;) got them all, for once...
STOP the Stupidity!!!
This Savage Chickens says it all. I think too much... makes happiness difficult. Umm,... I am working on it, give me some time. JD did tell me today that I shouldn't blog when drunk and horny... hmmmm... I think it makes me human and to some extent more exciting... how about you?
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Stupid Is as Stupid Does... Chapter Two
Ok, so Amused Muse reminds, ok... bitched at me, that I only told Chapter One of SIASD.
I came home ALONE, drunk as a skunk and wrote an email that I should not have written... not only that, it got a response, and I had to work up to reading it... couldn't open it right away...
LSS, it was closure, I can now walk on down the road to finding a SO without a ghost I had yesterday... It really hurts when a good one gets away and you don't know why it had to happen that way...
Most of it, well most of it (my stupidity of late) is an adjustment to my new life... I just have to work past it, or through it, or live through it... I will be great in the end, and I know it.
Oh, and she can't talk, she does stupid things when she has been drinking sometimes too... lol so there...
I came home ALONE, drunk as a skunk and wrote an email that I should not have written... not only that, it got a response, and I had to work up to reading it... couldn't open it right away...
LSS, it was closure, I can now walk on down the road to finding a SO without a ghost I had yesterday... It really hurts when a good one gets away and you don't know why it had to happen that way...
Most of it, well most of it (my stupidity of late) is an adjustment to my new life... I just have to work past it, or through it, or live through it... I will be great in the end, and I know it.
Oh, and she can't talk, she does stupid things when she has been drinking sometimes too... lol so there...
I Feel Stupid
I have been drunk, I have been very drunk, but I haven't been as drunk as I got last night in years... perhaps decades. I drank the whole small bottle of rum and had several jello shots.
I did stupid things, and as Forest Gump would say, "Stupid is as Stupid does"... yes I am.
I did stupid things, and as Forest Gump would say, "Stupid is as Stupid does"... yes I am.
You Only Play as Well as Your Opponent ... IN BAR LIFE
When you walk into a bar, say a place as small as a VFW, and look around at the wildlife *read as men, and there isn't anyone you would even remotely be attracted to if shopping for a man on a internet personals site... suddenly it is like the worst basketball games I ever played while in highschool. Your opponent is so bad that you play as bad or worse than they do.
Hence the drunken comment that there were several men I would consider jumping.
I think that happens no matter where you are. I also think you can meet the man of your dreams at the laundromat or the ball... the Ball, as in Cinderella.
Hence the drunken comment that there were several men I would consider jumping.
I think that happens no matter where you are. I also think you can meet the man of your dreams at the laundromat or the ball... the Ball, as in Cinderella.
Monday, January 09, 2006
What the F**K or Drinking and Blogging
Wait, you don't know my favorite saying while drunk? of course you should by now.
Amused Muse and I met for a week night of drinking at the VFW, for those of you who are too young, that stands for Veterans of Foreign Wars. And, yes I am toasted, blitzed, wasted, fucked over, and... apparently from what what the bar tendress said, a lesbian.
Why is it that everytime AM and I go somewhere and get blitzed, men think we are into each other and not them? There were at least 3 men in there I would have "done" yes I said "done" either sober or drunk, and more I would have done drunk... what? you haven't read my resolution for the year. Well go back and read MF>
lol, blogging and drinking, hmmm not a smart fix... lol, but damn, I feel good, now if only someone were here to feel me...lol
oh I did a Pick Three today, no fishing, but a Pick Three, and I got one to bite back.. we will see what the new year has in store..
Good night all, sweet dreams, from Bob and me...lol
Amused Muse and I met for a week night of drinking at the VFW, for those of you who are too young, that stands for Veterans of Foreign Wars. And, yes I am toasted, blitzed, wasted, fucked over, and... apparently from what what the bar tendress said, a lesbian.
Why is it that everytime AM and I go somewhere and get blitzed, men think we are into each other and not them? There were at least 3 men in there I would have "done" yes I said "done" either sober or drunk, and more I would have done drunk... what? you haven't read my resolution for the year. Well go back and read MF>
lol, blogging and drinking, hmmm not a smart fix... lol, but damn, I feel good, now if only someone were here to feel me...lol
oh I did a Pick Three today, no fishing, but a Pick Three, and I got one to bite back.. we will see what the new year has in store..
Good night all, sweet dreams, from Bob and me...lol
Sunday, January 08, 2006
From Across the Pond
Unconscious mutterings #153
I say ... and you think ... ?
Better off :: alone
Girls ::Girls Gone Wild (why didn't they have that when I could have been on it?)
Uniform :: A Man in UNIFORM does it for me every time
Classified :: Intelligence...as in "IF I told you I would have to kill you
Hard :: on... ok, I know I am not usually that blunt, but there is a drought here
Kitty :: Kitty Kitty
Team :: football, baseball, basketball, I like all those teams, just watching those sweaty men... did I say there was a drought? nuf said
Massive ::heart attack
Depressed :: again, after thinking about all those imaginary men
Award ::nominee
now you copy and paste in the comments and add your own.
I say ... and you think ... ?
Better off :: alone
Girls ::Girls Gone Wild (why didn't they have that when I could have been on it?)
Uniform :: A Man in UNIFORM does it for me every time
Classified :: Intelligence...as in "IF I told you I would have to kill you
Hard :: on... ok, I know I am not usually that blunt, but there is a drought here
Kitty :: Kitty Kitty
Team :: football, baseball, basketball, I like all those teams, just watching those sweaty men... did I say there was a drought? nuf said
Massive ::heart attack
Depressed :: again, after thinking about all those imaginary men
Award ::nominee
now you copy and paste in the comments and add your own.
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Sunday, and a list I can never complete but wish I could
1. Drive to San Marcos to the Outlet Mall for Potion #9 (haircare), Chico's for some casual pants for the weekend pool playing, and Bath and Body works for some hand soap for my kitchen. Pick up 3 extra boxes of stuff I left at old neighbor's house in New Braunfels done
2. Trip to the laundromat (new place doesn't have washer/dryer hookups) to do sheets, towels, and 3 loads of clothes
3. Trip to the bookstore for a book for teaching the letter G, and something good for me to read done
4. Unpacking bathroom boxes and putting stuff in the linen closet in the hall upstairs (new bathroom has no storage to speak of)
5. Organize closet (so I can find my clothes for work vs pool playing clothes)
6. Get an inspection sticker on my vehicle
7. Unpack Blue Willow Dishes done
8. Wash dishes
9. Carry out trash
10. Rearrange furniture
11. Wash the car
12. air up bike tires
13. load up school boxes and take to school on Monday
14. Write lesson plans
15. Create Display Board for polymer/snow demonstration for Science/Technology Night on Tuesday
Yeah I know I won't get it all done, it will be interesting to see what I do get done though...
2. Trip to the laundromat (new place doesn't have washer/dryer hookups) to do sheets, towels, and 3 loads of clothes
3. Trip to the bookstore for a book for teaching the letter G, and something good for me to read done
4. Unpacking bathroom boxes and putting stuff in the linen closet in the hall upstairs (new bathroom has no storage to speak of)
5. Organize closet (so I can find my clothes for work vs pool playing clothes)
6. Get an inspection sticker on my vehicle
7. Unpack Blue Willow Dishes done
8. Wash dishes
9. Carry out trash
10. Rearrange furniture
11. Wash the car
12. air up bike tires
13. load up school boxes and take to school on Monday
14. Write lesson plans
15. Create Display Board for polymer/snow demonstration for Science/Technology Night on Tuesday
Yeah I know I won't get it all done, it will be interesting to see what I do get done though...
Blah Blah Blah
Today was a bad day. I was/am "fussy". Had an argument/discussion via messenger with JD in Afghanistan, got pissed at Amused Muse, had no patience for RJ, and overall spent the day trying to not feel so tired I couldn't get off the couch. Finally took a nap off and on from 3-5, then returned calls from RJ.
We ended up going to eat some Mexican food, then a trip to a bar across town to play 3 games of pool and a few drinks. We thought we would go bar hopping, but then couldn't find another place we wanted to go. I was tired by 10:30 and so we came back here and watched a little of a very lame SNL.
Now I am about to retire to my comfy bed upstairs and get forty winks. A blah day and I am hoping for a better one tomorrow.
I need to get out of this funk, it is driving me nuts.
We ended up going to eat some Mexican food, then a trip to a bar across town to play 3 games of pool and a few drinks. We thought we would go bar hopping, but then couldn't find another place we wanted to go. I was tired by 10:30 and so we came back here and watched a little of a very lame SNL.
Now I am about to retire to my comfy bed upstairs and get forty winks. A blah day and I am hoping for a better one tomorrow.
I need to get out of this funk, it is driving me nuts.
What the F***?
I have pondered a question by a fellow blogger, or should I say blogger fellow about my ex's.
Shitheads? Naive? Boring?
Ummmm can I claim all three? Actually, I should be a bit nicer than that... but I don't want to.
The first one, he is boring, we had nothing in common. I married him the same year my dad and granny bea died. Looking back I think I married him to have someone to take care of me. I knew I wanted children so I had my first at 23 less than two weeks before my birthday. I wanted about 6 children, I had 2, with the same husband, and no more. Divorced him when I realized I had lost all self esteem and identity of who I was and I wanted to regain them. He did anything, everything, I told him to. That isn't what I wanted either. It sounds good, but ladies, just be careful what you ask for. He still does do everything I tell him to, and he has been remarried for over 12 years. I would sum it up as a NON PERSONALITY.
The second, well, he wasn't my dream man, but he was my best friend. I was closer to him than I thought was possible with any man. I am not sure what happened, all I know is that he didn't want to make it work, he didn't have enough self esteem, and he didn't have the balls to let me know when I "offended" him. Now, that is just my interpretation. I lost my best friend, but I found new ones. As a lover, ... well let's just refer to the saying that there are three things in marriage you must have going for you and for each one that isn't it causes great stress. They are money issues, sex, and family relations, we had all three problems. It was doomed, and I am better off alone, so things work out for the best.
My best relationships were with men that I didn't marry, and I feel it is in my best interest to not remarry. I have learned that I can stay in it for the long haul, if he is willing to as well. I also need a man strong enough to stand up to me in a respectful way.
There is a song by Train called Meet Virginia, and I don't really want to be the queen. I just want a man to treat like a king, who will treat me like princess. I know it probably won't ever happen, but I can still dream. In the meantime, I continue to live life to the fullest.
I refer to the saying "lucky in cards, unlucky in love" so I will go play poker now.
The title seemed appropriate, what can I say?
Shitheads? Naive? Boring?
Ummmm can I claim all three? Actually, I should be a bit nicer than that... but I don't want to.
The first one, he is boring, we had nothing in common. I married him the same year my dad and granny bea died. Looking back I think I married him to have someone to take care of me. I knew I wanted children so I had my first at 23 less than two weeks before my birthday. I wanted about 6 children, I had 2, with the same husband, and no more. Divorced him when I realized I had lost all self esteem and identity of who I was and I wanted to regain them. He did anything, everything, I told him to. That isn't what I wanted either. It sounds good, but ladies, just be careful what you ask for. He still does do everything I tell him to, and he has been remarried for over 12 years. I would sum it up as a NON PERSONALITY.
The second, well, he wasn't my dream man, but he was my best friend. I was closer to him than I thought was possible with any man. I am not sure what happened, all I know is that he didn't want to make it work, he didn't have enough self esteem, and he didn't have the balls to let me know when I "offended" him. Now, that is just my interpretation. I lost my best friend, but I found new ones. As a lover, ... well let's just refer to the saying that there are three things in marriage you must have going for you and for each one that isn't it causes great stress. They are money issues, sex, and family relations, we had all three problems. It was doomed, and I am better off alone, so things work out for the best.
My best relationships were with men that I didn't marry, and I feel it is in my best interest to not remarry. I have learned that I can stay in it for the long haul, if he is willing to as well. I also need a man strong enough to stand up to me in a respectful way.
There is a song by Train called Meet Virginia, and I don't really want to be the queen. I just want a man to treat like a king, who will treat me like princess. I know it probably won't ever happen, but I can still dream. In the meantime, I continue to live life to the fullest.
I refer to the saying "lucky in cards, unlucky in love" so I will go play poker now.
The title seemed appropriate, what can I say?
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Day 5
Today's List
Get up (yes, sometimes it is hard to get up, esp. after a national championship football game and a Texas team won)check
Get some cash check
Stand in line to get new tags for car check
Grocery Shopping check
Get up (yes, sometimes it is hard to get up, esp. after a national championship football game and a Texas team won)check
Get some cash check
Stand in line to get new tags for car check
Grocery Shopping check
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Day Four
Today my goal was to play poker with Jessie James. I didn't make my goal. He was late coming to get me. (actually, I drove my own car, he just came by so I could follow him there) We got to the game too late to play. Sat and drank, watched the first half of the Rose Bowl and then drove home after a brief goodnight.
SOMETHING about a man, friend or otherwise, who visits with everyone else in the bar (he knows all the poker players) and leaves me to sit at the bar drinking, drinking heavily.... on his tab.... that SOMETHING does not get brownie points in my book. I left at half time... oh yeah I already mentioned that didn't I?
I am thinking Yoga on Wednesday is the way to go.
The Rosebowl is a good game, it isn't over yet, so if the Longhorns lose, they gave USC a run for their money. If not... WOOHOO LONGHORNS!!!!
Oh yeah, did I mention, I was drinking heavily? lol, well let's just say, I am feeling it now...
Sweet dreams to all... next time remind me to go to yoga.
SOMETHING about a man, friend or otherwise, who visits with everyone else in the bar (he knows all the poker players) and leaves me to sit at the bar drinking, drinking heavily.... on his tab.... that SOMETHING does not get brownie points in my book. I left at half time... oh yeah I already mentioned that didn't I?
I am thinking Yoga on Wednesday is the way to go.
The Rosebowl is a good game, it isn't over yet, so if the Longhorns lose, they gave USC a run for their money. If not... WOOHOO LONGHORNS!!!!
Oh yeah, did I mention, I was drinking heavily? lol, well let's just say, I am feeling it now...
Sweet dreams to all... next time remind me to go to yoga.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Nine Layers
Layer one
Name: Cindy
Birth date: January 23
Birth place: Methodist Hospital, Lubbock, Texas, USA
Current location: San Antonio, TX
Eye colour: Green
Hair colour: Brownish Red over Gray I had at 22
Height: 5' 9"
Righty or lefty: lefty
Zodiac sign: Aquarius
Layer two
Your heritage: English/German
The shoes you wore today: BORN brown leather slip-ons (first day back at school after Christmas holidays
Your weaknesses: anything "beachy", pink flamingos, anything purple, chocolate, complimentary men, men who know how to flirt without being leaches, words, people who are good with words, Rum, Chicos, and babies
Your fears: snakes
Your perfect pizza: Pizza Hut, Pepperoni Lovers with mushrooms and onions
Goal you'd like to achieve: I have my dream job, so it would be.... Traveling the world, esp. Italy, Costa Rico, Greece, and Alaska....oh and river rafting down the Colorado River
Layer three
Your most overused phrase: When I am drinking - What the Fuck, When I am not drinking ... What planet are you from?
Your first waking thoughts: I wish I had someone to bring me a diet coke
Your best physical feature: Hair, Smile
Your most missed memory: oh there are so many... Vacations with my family driving all over the state of Texas, and going to Mexico and staying over at one of the border towns for a week.
Layer four
Pepsi or Coke: Coke... Diet of course
McDonald's or Burger King: Whataburger
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Ice Tea of Nestea: Lipton Ice Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate, Chocolate, Chocolate
Capuccino or coffee: Chai Tea
Layer five
Smoke: Cigarettes, never, Wacky Weed not anymore :(
Cuss: yes, like a sailor
Sing: yes, badly but all the time
Take a shower everyday: Yes
Do you think you've been in love: yes
Want to go to college: Been There, Done That
Liked high school: hated it
Want to get married: Been There, Done That, not again, but a SO yes, I want one
Believe in yourself: yes
Get motion sickness: no
Think you're attractive: yes
Think you're a health freak: define freak...lol, no, but I like to be healthy
Get along with your parent(s): usually
Like thunderstorms: love them
Play an instrument: kazoo and tambourine
Layer six
- in the last month ......
Drank alcohol: yes
Smoked: no
Done a drug: no
Made out: yes
Gone on a date: yes
Gone to the mall: yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
Eaten sushi: no
Been on stage: no
Been dumped: no
Gone skating: rollerblading yes
Made homemade cookies: yes
Gone skinny dipping: no, it is Winter here
Dyed your hair: no
Stolen anything: no
Layer seven
- ever ......
Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
If so, was it in mixed company: yes
Been trashed or extremely intoxicate: yes
Been caught "doing something!": yes
Been called a tease: yes, a very long time ago
Shoplifted: yes
Changed who you were to fit in: yes, as a teenager
Layer eight
Age you hope to be married: n/a but was at 22 and 30
Numbers and names of children: 2, Josh and Casey
Describe your dream wedding: Had it when I was 30,
How do you want to die: Quickly without any pain
Where you want to go to college: If I went again, Texas A&M
What do you want to be when you grow up: Happy
What country would you most like to visit: Italy
Layer nine
Number of people I would trust with my life: 0
Number of CDs that I own: around 50
Number of piercings: 4 - 2 in each ear
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 3 that I know of ;)
Number of scars on my body: 3 that I can think of off the bat
Number of things in my past that I regret: NO REGRETS
Name: Cindy
Birth date: January 23
Birth place: Methodist Hospital, Lubbock, Texas, USA
Current location: San Antonio, TX
Eye colour: Green
Hair colour: Brownish Red over Gray I had at 22
Height: 5' 9"
Righty or lefty: lefty
Zodiac sign: Aquarius
Layer two
Your heritage: English/German
The shoes you wore today: BORN brown leather slip-ons (first day back at school after Christmas holidays
Your weaknesses: anything "beachy", pink flamingos, anything purple, chocolate, complimentary men, men who know how to flirt without being leaches, words, people who are good with words, Rum, Chicos, and babies
Your fears: snakes
Your perfect pizza: Pizza Hut, Pepperoni Lovers with mushrooms and onions
Goal you'd like to achieve: I have my dream job, so it would be.... Traveling the world, esp. Italy, Costa Rico, Greece, and Alaska....oh and river rafting down the Colorado River
Layer three
Your most overused phrase: When I am drinking - What the Fuck, When I am not drinking ... What planet are you from?
Your first waking thoughts: I wish I had someone to bring me a diet coke
Your best physical feature: Hair, Smile
Your most missed memory: oh there are so many... Vacations with my family driving all over the state of Texas, and going to Mexico and staying over at one of the border towns for a week.
Layer four
Pepsi or Coke: Coke... Diet of course
McDonald's or Burger King: Whataburger
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Ice Tea of Nestea: Lipton Ice Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate, Chocolate, Chocolate
Capuccino or coffee: Chai Tea
Layer five
Smoke: Cigarettes, never, Wacky Weed not anymore :(
Cuss: yes, like a sailor
Sing: yes, badly but all the time
Take a shower everyday: Yes
Do you think you've been in love: yes
Want to go to college: Been There, Done That
Liked high school: hated it
Want to get married: Been There, Done That, not again, but a SO yes, I want one
Believe in yourself: yes
Get motion sickness: no
Think you're attractive: yes
Think you're a health freak: define freak...lol, no, but I like to be healthy
Get along with your parent(s): usually
Like thunderstorms: love them
Play an instrument: kazoo and tambourine
Layer six
- in the last month ......
Drank alcohol: yes
Smoked: no
Done a drug: no
Made out: yes
Gone on a date: yes
Gone to the mall: yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
Eaten sushi: no
Been on stage: no
Been dumped: no
Gone skating: rollerblading yes
Made homemade cookies: yes
Gone skinny dipping: no, it is Winter here
Dyed your hair: no
Stolen anything: no
Layer seven
- ever ......
Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
If so, was it in mixed company: yes
Been trashed or extremely intoxicate: yes
Been caught "doing something!": yes
Been called a tease: yes, a very long time ago
Shoplifted: yes
Changed who you were to fit in: yes, as a teenager
Layer eight
Age you hope to be married: n/a but was at 22 and 30
Numbers and names of children: 2, Josh and Casey
Describe your dream wedding: Had it when I was 30,
How do you want to die: Quickly without any pain
Where you want to go to college: If I went again, Texas A&M
What do you want to be when you grow up: Happy
What country would you most like to visit: Italy
Layer nine
Number of people I would trust with my life: 0
Number of CDs that I own: around 50
Number of piercings: 4 - 2 in each ear
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 3 that I know of ;)
Number of scars on my body: 3 that I can think of off the bat
Number of things in my past that I regret: NO REGRETS
Day 3 List
Go to the bank check
Take oldest son to dinner check
get a trashcan for upstairs check
take a walk ummm well there wasn't really enough time
unpack two boxes of course not... even though I should
(all to be done after work)
Take oldest son to dinner check
get a trashcan for upstairs check
take a walk ummm well there wasn't really enough time
unpack two boxes of course not... even though I should
(all to be done after work)
Monday, January 02, 2006
All out of Adrenaline
I have slept enough to day to make up for all my fitfilled nights for two weeks, I think. I have no desire to do anything, even though I have forced myself to get up and do a few things. I am just about to walk out the door to run some errands and pick up something for dinner, even though I don't have a clue of what I might like to eat. I believe it will be an early evening for me. I am going to make a whole-hearted effort to go for a walk in my new neighborhood about 6 pm, just to get an idea of the "path" I will want to take on future walks and try to get me of the "funk" I am feeling today.
Moving is the second most stressful life occurance right after death... is losing two children due to them thinking they are grown the same as a feeling of death? I never thought their moving out would give me any qualms, but it certainly has. It has also made me appreciate their personalities more, without the messes they make. It is a whole new world now.... lookout, here I come...
Moving is the second most stressful life occurance right after death... is losing two children due to them thinking they are grown the same as a feeling of death? I never thought their moving out would give me any qualms, but it certainly has. It has also made me appreciate their personalities more, without the messes they make. It is a whole new world now.... lookout, here I come...
Day 2, Monday
Man I was so tired yesterday, I was late to poker playing, and not at all upset with losing early. I came home and promptly fell asleep on the couch, and sometime later woke up and put myself to bed. Of course going to bed so early, I woke up early as well. More time to get things done I suppose.
Today's List
Get the last load of moving stuff out of my car Done
Find my box of shoes well, one of them anyway, done
Put together clothes for work tomorrow (omg, I have to go back to work tomorrow, yuck) done
Wash sheets and towels will have to be done another day
That's about it, keep it light, even though, if you saw my car, you would know that isn't light. It is loaded down with the last weird stuff you aren't sure what to do with, but you know you have to move it junk.
More joy to come....
Today's List
Get the last load of moving stuff out of my car Done
Find my box of shoes well, one of them anyway, done
Put together clothes for work tomorrow (omg, I have to go back to work tomorrow, yuck) done
Wash sheets and towels will have to be done another day
That's about it, keep it light, even though, if you saw my car, you would know that isn't light. It is loaded down with the last weird stuff you aren't sure what to do with, but you know you have to move it junk.
More joy to come....
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Day One, 2006
Today I hope to accomplish:
Washing the dishes done
Cooking a great meal bacon, eggs and toast... done
Playing poker with friends .....and I lost ten dollars :(
Washing Towels and hanging them up to dry done
Eat an orange (don't eat enough fruit) CA Naval Orange, it was delish
Empty 2 boxes (just moved) didn't happen
Find my box of shoes didn't happen
One great thing that already happened today.... I spent the beginning of the new year with two great men that I am glad are my friends, RJ and Jessie James. How can you have a bad year when starting it off with two men drinking champagne and trying to see fireworks on a cloudy New Year's Eve? I think it is going to be a great year.
Washing the dishes done
Cooking a great meal bacon, eggs and toast... done
Playing poker with friends .....and I lost ten dollars :(
Washing Towels and hanging them up to dry done
Eat an orange (don't eat enough fruit) CA Naval Orange, it was delish
Empty 2 boxes (just moved) didn't happen
Find my box of shoes didn't happen
One great thing that already happened today.... I spent the beginning of the new year with two great men that I am glad are my friends, RJ and Jessie James. How can you have a bad year when starting it off with two men drinking champagne and trying to see fireworks on a cloudy New Year's Eve? I think it is going to be a great year.
New Year //// New Beginning
Oh I know... people write resolutions, try to change their lives at the beginning of each year, and yes, I am one of those people.
This year I am going to approach it just a little bit different. For one, you, the infinite world of blog readers (or I could just be writing to myself) are going to have a bird's eye view of my progress throughout the year.
My resolution is to make healthier choices for my psyche and phyical well being in the coming year. I am going to start by writing as often as possible about my goals I have each day.
I have one long term goal... it has to do with a bet I have with someone very close to me. I want to lose about 50 lbs. I don't know how long it will take, but I am hoping by the end of July, it will all be gone. So my weight right now will be known as X, and every week or so I will report on my blog what progress has been made or not, such as X-3, meaning I have lost three lbs.
And as I said, I will try to write a list of goals for each day, along with one thing that was good that happened as well, when I see how I progressed through my list.
I hope you all have a fruitful and wonderful new year. May your worst day of 2006 be comparable to your best day of 2005.
This year I am going to approach it just a little bit different. For one, you, the infinite world of blog readers (or I could just be writing to myself) are going to have a bird's eye view of my progress throughout the year.
My resolution is to make healthier choices for my psyche and phyical well being in the coming year. I am going to start by writing as often as possible about my goals I have each day.
I have one long term goal... it has to do with a bet I have with someone very close to me. I want to lose about 50 lbs. I don't know how long it will take, but I am hoping by the end of July, it will all be gone. So my weight right now will be known as X, and every week or so I will report on my blog what progress has been made or not, such as X-3, meaning I have lost three lbs.
And as I said, I will try to write a list of goals for each day, along with one thing that was good that happened as well, when I see how I progressed through my list.
I hope you all have a fruitful and wonderful new year. May your worst day of 2006 be comparable to your best day of 2005.
Monday, December 26, 2005
The Surprise
Each Christmas, my mom always strives to surprise me at least with one gift I have no idea what might be. She has gotten to where she doesn't even bring it in the house til Christmas morning. (when I was a child I would peek at all my gifts ahead of time, didn't I say I don't like surprises?) Anyway, this year...
drumroll please...... ddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd... it was a very nice lounge chair for sunbathing. I was delightfully surprised, and yet perplexed. lol... is this for me to use here or at home? I asked.... wherever she says.
I know the real reason she got it. I was at the beach all summer, and I know I complained about having to get up from a very low beach chair that I was sunbathing on. I have a knee that doesn't want to bend with weight on it, so I have had to learn new ways to get up off and down onto the floor, beach, low chairs, etc.
The Perfect gift to compliment my favorite past time. Thank God for mothers... they always love you and listen to you.
I didn't get much this Christmas, but the love behind the gifts from everyone who gave me something really was shining through and that means more than anything else.
Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Claus.
drumroll please...... ddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd... it was a very nice lounge chair for sunbathing. I was delightfully surprised, and yet perplexed. lol... is this for me to use here or at home? I asked.... wherever she says.
I know the real reason she got it. I was at the beach all summer, and I know I complained about having to get up from a very low beach chair that I was sunbathing on. I have a knee that doesn't want to bend with weight on it, so I have had to learn new ways to get up off and down onto the floor, beach, low chairs, etc.
The Perfect gift to compliment my favorite past time. Thank God for mothers... they always love you and listen to you.
I didn't get much this Christmas, but the love behind the gifts from everyone who gave me something really was shining through and that means more than anything else.
Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Claus.
Home Again, Home Again Jiggity Jig
On my way home this morning, just a mere 500 mile trek, which will find me arriving sometime around 3pm hopefully. It was a short trip. I am getting ready to move and have so many things to do, I am anxious to be home. My mom appreciated not being alone at Christmas, although it didn't even feel like Christmas to either of us. I have a new CD to listen to on the way home, so that will help when there aren't any radio stations to speak of. See you there...
Saturday, December 24, 2005
New Year's Eve Poker Game Extravaganza
You are all cordially invited to my New Year's Eve Poker Game and Party. We will be having potluck munchies, BYOB libations and.... drum roll please... just for Amused Muse.... BLUE Jello shots, yes, according to AM, blue is a flavor. LMAO
Make that Blue Raspberry and Parrot Bay Jello shots. Bring your favorite holiday munching dish and your money so that I can win it all. I am told by my poker playing partner that the table will look professional, we will use chips with a buy in. Just a friendly, safe from travel on a drunken night of poker. There will be great conversation, music, a fire in the chimenea and bonding among new and old friends.
I look forward to seeing you there. (don't forget your cash, I intend to win)
Make that Blue Raspberry and Parrot Bay Jello shots. Bring your favorite holiday munching dish and your money so that I can win it all. I am told by my poker playing partner that the table will look professional, we will use chips with a buy in. Just a friendly, safe from travel on a drunken night of poker. There will be great conversation, music, a fire in the chimenea and bonding among new and old friends.
I look forward to seeing you there. (don't forget your cash, I intend to win)
The Trek Across the State
My mom lives over 500 miles away. This is the first year I have made the drive alone and will again on my way home. I have two grown sons now. AS I DROVE yesterday, I realized that not only was I driving alone for a change but that very soon I would be living alone as well. I haven't lived completely alone since I was a teenager. I believe the last time was in an apartment very similar to the one I am moving into. An upstairs\downstairs, 2 br, built around the 50's... among other things... the difference is the pool, there is a pool to go along with this one.
Another point of interest is that the drive goes much faster when alone. Suppose I had a great deal to think about. Then again, I didn't stop as often and even made a trip 30 miles out of the way to look over the house I own in Tahoka Texas. My renters are moving, and wanting their deposit check back, so I had to look it over before returning their money. It was spotless and looking as it did 4 years ago when I rented it to them. Thankfully, there was no lapse in time before the new renters move in, which will occur next week. I have been very lucky and I am glad. It is hard to rent a place over 400 miles away and know whether you got good renters or not. So, yes, I thought about this and many other things as well.
Upon arriving, my mom had potato soup ready and was baking cookies, yummy cookies. This was quite a surprise, but mainly because until this fall she has not been getting around very well. She is now making herself get out and do things. Apparently it has to do with supplemental insurance telling her they won't cover her due to her COPD, which she has had, and I believe still has, but she goes to the dr. in January and wants him to say she doesn't. I would love to say it is because she wants to be able to come see me and will fly, but after the info on the insurance the puzzle pieces all fell into place.
After soup, I layed down on her bed to watch TV (her tv room) and proceeded to take a nap without trying to. Of course I had started the big drive at 6 am and arrived at 2:30 pm. So, I suppose a good nap was in order.
Upon waking, more soup (homemade food, not passing that up) and cookies, and then discussion of a trip to Bed Bath and Beyond for some new things for my new place. You know, the boring but necessary stuff, dishrack, since I don't have a dishwasher, shower curtain, etc. So that was part of, if not all of my Christmas, as compared to the offer for new chairs to a table I have. I would love to have the chairs, but there are so many little things I feel I need more. My mom doesn't get out and shop much (see health issues above), so Christmas is very different with her these days. She does try to surprise me, since she thinks I am rarely surprised esp. by others and she thinks I need a few surprises.
What she doesn't realize is that I don't like surprises. When they are good ones they are great. Unfortunately, I think I have had more that were unpleasant that wonderful, so I am very leary of them. I cannot hide my feelings, they are written all over my face, so if it isn't something I like, it shows, and then others get their feelings hurt. However, more times than not, it is something I would rather not know/hear/find out even if it is best for me to know/hear/findout.
ex: "I'm married" or "I'm bisexual" or "I'm just not that into you" ...ok, I haven't heard that last one, but I would prefer it to the other two....
Slept all night like a baby, and now am up while mom sleeps. She sleeps in 2-3 hour spurts and is up most of the night and right now is when she sleeps the best.
The trains blowing their horns, the cold wind blowing, the dry air, the lack of anything green, and the red dirt tell me I am home. I miss the trains at times, but that is about it... the red dirt is pretty at the canyons.
Today is Christmas Eve dinner with mom. We are having duck. I can't wait. A few days rest, a great meal or 5, and some quality time with my mom. Life is good.
Merry Christmas to all and Happy New Year too....
Another point of interest is that the drive goes much faster when alone. Suppose I had a great deal to think about. Then again, I didn't stop as often and even made a trip 30 miles out of the way to look over the house I own in Tahoka Texas. My renters are moving, and wanting their deposit check back, so I had to look it over before returning their money. It was spotless and looking as it did 4 years ago when I rented it to them. Thankfully, there was no lapse in time before the new renters move in, which will occur next week. I have been very lucky and I am glad. It is hard to rent a place over 400 miles away and know whether you got good renters or not. So, yes, I thought about this and many other things as well.
Upon arriving, my mom had potato soup ready and was baking cookies, yummy cookies. This was quite a surprise, but mainly because until this fall she has not been getting around very well. She is now making herself get out and do things. Apparently it has to do with supplemental insurance telling her they won't cover her due to her COPD, which she has had, and I believe still has, but she goes to the dr. in January and wants him to say she doesn't. I would love to say it is because she wants to be able to come see me and will fly, but after the info on the insurance the puzzle pieces all fell into place.
After soup, I layed down on her bed to watch TV (her tv room) and proceeded to take a nap without trying to. Of course I had started the big drive at 6 am and arrived at 2:30 pm. So, I suppose a good nap was in order.
Upon waking, more soup (homemade food, not passing that up) and cookies, and then discussion of a trip to Bed Bath and Beyond for some new things for my new place. You know, the boring but necessary stuff, dishrack, since I don't have a dishwasher, shower curtain, etc. So that was part of, if not all of my Christmas, as compared to the offer for new chairs to a table I have. I would love to have the chairs, but there are so many little things I feel I need more. My mom doesn't get out and shop much (see health issues above), so Christmas is very different with her these days. She does try to surprise me, since she thinks I am rarely surprised esp. by others and she thinks I need a few surprises.
What she doesn't realize is that I don't like surprises. When they are good ones they are great. Unfortunately, I think I have had more that were unpleasant that wonderful, so I am very leary of them. I cannot hide my feelings, they are written all over my face, so if it isn't something I like, it shows, and then others get their feelings hurt. However, more times than not, it is something I would rather not know/hear/find out even if it is best for me to know/hear/findout.
ex: "I'm married" or "I'm bisexual" or "I'm just not that into you" ...ok, I haven't heard that last one, but I would prefer it to the other two....
Slept all night like a baby, and now am up while mom sleeps. She sleeps in 2-3 hour spurts and is up most of the night and right now is when she sleeps the best.
The trains blowing their horns, the cold wind blowing, the dry air, the lack of anything green, and the red dirt tell me I am home. I miss the trains at times, but that is about it... the red dirt is pretty at the canyons.
Today is Christmas Eve dinner with mom. We are having duck. I can't wait. A few days rest, a great meal or 5, and some quality time with my mom. Life is good.
Merry Christmas to all and Happy New Year too....
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
I have the Greatest Friends
RJ gave me the best Christmas Presents. First of all, he gave me a certificate for a One- Hour Body Massage. I have been having trouble with my back, mainly stress related and he knew I would love to get a massage... what a guy.. and then... on top of that... he gave me a small pocket knife I could put on my keychain. It is great, scissors and all. Now I can feel a bit safer walking to my car, and I will have a knife handy whenever I need it. Truly pure thoughtfulness... a great guy. And the best gift of all, the other night when we had drank more than we should and I stayed at his house instead of driving home, he brought me a diet coke when I woke up... priceless... there are a few things I miss and that is one of them.
Amused Muse had me in mind when purchasing a pint jar, a quart jar, fat straws and a mix drink dictionary for me. Happy Hour at my new home daily... come on over and have a drink, a dip in the pool, or a game of cards. The jars? well, you can do your measuring on the side of the jar...lol Great minds think alike...
Oralia, mentor, fellow teacher and confidant gave me a tea pitcher that you plug in and heat water in and a homemade apron for cooking in my classroom. The comforts of home... at work...
Friends are great, and I am so glad I have the ones I do.
Amused Muse had me in mind when purchasing a pint jar, a quart jar, fat straws and a mix drink dictionary for me. Happy Hour at my new home daily... come on over and have a drink, a dip in the pool, or a game of cards. The jars? well, you can do your measuring on the side of the jar...lol Great minds think alike...
Oralia, mentor, fellow teacher and confidant gave me a tea pitcher that you plug in and heat water in and a homemade apron for cooking in my classroom. The comforts of home... at work...
Friends are great, and I am so glad I have the ones I do.
The VFW Post
Yes, boys and girls, I was hanging out at the VFW last night... lol... well there is always a FIRST and this was certainly it.
Mr. Duvall would have been proud. He goes to one himself every once in a while.
I drank Smirnoff Ice, Raspberry of course, played Patsy Cline on the Juke Box, along with King of the Road and Jack the Knife, played a mean game of darts, made a couple of new friends, and drank so much I stayed at AM's house. It was a lovely evening.
THE KICKER:
RJ's daughter likes fancy soap from Bath and Body works, she was out of it, so I went to get her some more the other day. While I was there I was reminiscing the last gift I had from there, some wonderful vanilla and brown sugar items. I wanted something similar, just to torture myself with memories, I guess, because that is all that scent will do for me, besides make me feel wonderfully delicious.
LSS, I bought some fig and brown sugar... similar, but different enough to say "Change, it can be a good thing".
At the VFW, I used my new lotion on my hands, thinking nothing of it. A young man at least 10 years my junior walked by several times. Then, much later in the evening, he told another guy "Hey, smell her hair". I was mortified at first, then remembered that many men do comment on how good my hair smells, so I obliged. Then I realized he was referring to the scent of the lotion. So I went over and offered my hand.... for a sniff that is, and he said "yeah, that's it, what is that?" and I told him...
I know one thing boys and girls, I will be wearing that lotion anytime I go out for a long time. Perhaps it will help some new memories come along and help me forget the old ones, or at least push them out of my consciousness.
Mr. Duvall would have been proud. He goes to one himself every once in a while.
I drank Smirnoff Ice, Raspberry of course, played Patsy Cline on the Juke Box, along with King of the Road and Jack the Knife, played a mean game of darts, made a couple of new friends, and drank so much I stayed at AM's house. It was a lovely evening.
THE KICKER:
RJ's daughter likes fancy soap from Bath and Body works, she was out of it, so I went to get her some more the other day. While I was there I was reminiscing the last gift I had from there, some wonderful vanilla and brown sugar items. I wanted something similar, just to torture myself with memories, I guess, because that is all that scent will do for me, besides make me feel wonderfully delicious.
LSS, I bought some fig and brown sugar... similar, but different enough to say "Change, it can be a good thing".
At the VFW, I used my new lotion on my hands, thinking nothing of it. A young man at least 10 years my junior walked by several times. Then, much later in the evening, he told another guy "Hey, smell her hair". I was mortified at first, then remembered that many men do comment on how good my hair smells, so I obliged. Then I realized he was referring to the scent of the lotion. So I went over and offered my hand.... for a sniff that is, and he said "yeah, that's it, what is that?" and I told him...
I know one thing boys and girls, I will be wearing that lotion anytime I go out for a long time. Perhaps it will help some new memories come along and help me forget the old ones, or at least push them out of my consciousness.
THE LIST
Haven't seen one of these for awhile eh?
Buy boxes... check (yes, Amused Muse talked me into it, but it looks to be a smart idea so far... good boxes to move, well packed, well marked, may not be unpacked for awhile)
Pack boxes... started, won't finish anytime soon
Clean Bathroom
Eat Pizza (it's on it's way) check
Price new furniture check (so I don't wish I had it, when I see how outrageously priced it is, but it is a beautiful mission style)
Pay bills
Change over utilities ..check
Wash Clothes 1 load done,
try to calm down (I am getting really excited about my move)
Buy boxes... check (yes, Amused Muse talked me into it, but it looks to be a smart idea so far... good boxes to move, well packed, well marked, may not be unpacked for awhile)
Pack boxes... started, won't finish anytime soon
Clean Bathroom
Eat Pizza (it's on it's way) check
Price new furniture check (so I don't wish I had it, when I see how outrageously priced it is, but it is a beautiful mission style)
Pay bills
Change over utilities ..check
Wash Clothes 1 load done,
try to calm down (I am getting really excited about my move)
What a difference a DAY makes
My oh My was I ready for a holiday break. Today is Tuesday and it feels like Sunday, yesterday felt like Saturday... yes, I just had a double... double weekend that is.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Horoscopes?
This is mine for today.... eerie isn't it?
Horoscopes
Aquarius
Daily singles love (by Astrology.com)Create some space for new love to come into your life. That may mean revamping some of your current attitudes about what love means, or even cutting off something or someone from the past. -
Horoscopes
Aquarius
Daily singles love (by Astrology.com)Create some space for new love to come into your life. That may mean revamping some of your current attitudes about what love means, or even cutting off something or someone from the past. -
Chief and links
La Laquet sent me directions for making a link, so here is my first attempt. My dog, Chief is up for adoption. He is a fantastic dog and I have one very interested family and I am so glad. It is like giving your children away and I am very sad to see him go, but glad he will be well taken care of.
Woo Hoo Tomorrow is my favorite day of the week
Yes, boys and girls, Wednesday is my favorite day of the week.
Why? Why not Friday or Saturday, or even Sunday?
Because boys and girls, Wednesday means it is only two more days til the weekend... lol
And after Friday, I am free for two glorious weeks. I am going to celebrate Friday night with a night out on the town with my good friend RJ. We are going to dinner at PF Changs (they have this luscious new drink called a Poolside, it is green and very potent) and then pool playing at my favorite, least smokey bicycle club. I am excited.... plus RJ promised my own personal letter from Santa, that I can't read in front of my students (he played the big guy and answered all my student's Letters to Mr. C) .
Yes, I do still believe in Santa, and if there was a year I need to believe, it is this one.
Hoorah for Wednesday!!!
Why? Why not Friday or Saturday, or even Sunday?
Because boys and girls, Wednesday means it is only two more days til the weekend... lol
And after Friday, I am free for two glorious weeks. I am going to celebrate Friday night with a night out on the town with my good friend RJ. We are going to dinner at PF Changs (they have this luscious new drink called a Poolside, it is green and very potent) and then pool playing at my favorite, least smokey bicycle club. I am excited.... plus RJ promised my own personal letter from Santa, that I can't read in front of my students (he played the big guy and answered all my student's Letters to Mr. C) .
Yes, I do still believe in Santa, and if there was a year I need to believe, it is this one.
Hoorah for Wednesday!!!
WHY?
Why do we make such fools of ourselves? There is a man in my past, or rather, he should be in my past, and yet he pops up in my thoughts at the worst possible times. My bestest friend has a man she can't get over, she isn't done...she can't write the last chapter yet, it is true, it really is her problem, unfortunately, it is also my problem. I have one of those myself...
An IMPOSSIBLE situation, that I know will be no more than what it is... IN the PAST.
Unfortunately, just as my friend, I find it hard at times to NOT call, write, stalk, harrass, or blackmail. Oh wait, yes... I said stalk, harrass and/or blackmail... hmmm that must be why those people who do those things actually DO do those things...
I want to let it go
I pretend to let it go
I go for weeks/months without acting on it, and THEN
I do something stupid, I look more and more "flaky", I fuck up any chance that THAT person will ever even consider me a real friend or more ever again.
Amused Muse shared something she has done recently and I could so relate to how bad she felt and how much she regretted her actions, and she made contact with her, for lack of another word, "obsession". Yes, we are obsessed, but somehow, I don't think we are alone.
RJ and I talked about it at dinner, without mentioning names, and his thought on what it takes to get past it was the same as mine. You have to meet someone... someone who, in your eyes, is bigger than life, or at least bigger than the one that you can't let go of.
At this point, I don't know if there will ever be anyone "bigger" than life, or if I will have to just wait it out and hope that it wears off, or fades away or dies, or whatever...
What I do know is that sometimes I wish I had never known him and other times I know that for a few fantastical wonderful days, nights and meetings in the park, I had what everyone lives their entire lives to find and I should just feel lucky to have found it once.
Then again, isn't it all just in my head and no better or worse than I want to make it?
Why does it come back time and time again with such fury to take over my moods and attention span?
I don't know, but I do know it is both a curse and blessing and I face it each time with such opposing emotions.
Amused Muse had her guard down yesterday and she made some choices that I could understand and relate to, and at the same time, talking to her about it just dug up my own emotions and thoughts... so here it is, maybe if I put it down in words it will get out of my head....
why? because I want to be rid of it. I want to be rid of the things that remind me of feelings so raw and so strong that I became a complete other person, and I am not sure if it was worth it or not,
Why? Because, whether curse or blessing, it hurts just the same.
An IMPOSSIBLE situation, that I know will be no more than what it is... IN the PAST.
Unfortunately, just as my friend, I find it hard at times to NOT call, write, stalk, harrass, or blackmail. Oh wait, yes... I said stalk, harrass and/or blackmail... hmmm that must be why those people who do those things actually DO do those things...
I want to let it go
I pretend to let it go
I go for weeks/months without acting on it, and THEN
I do something stupid, I look more and more "flaky", I fuck up any chance that THAT person will ever even consider me a real friend or more ever again.
Amused Muse shared something she has done recently and I could so relate to how bad she felt and how much she regretted her actions, and she made contact with her, for lack of another word, "obsession". Yes, we are obsessed, but somehow, I don't think we are alone.
RJ and I talked about it at dinner, without mentioning names, and his thought on what it takes to get past it was the same as mine. You have to meet someone... someone who, in your eyes, is bigger than life, or at least bigger than the one that you can't let go of.
At this point, I don't know if there will ever be anyone "bigger" than life, or if I will have to just wait it out and hope that it wears off, or fades away or dies, or whatever...
What I do know is that sometimes I wish I had never known him and other times I know that for a few fantastical wonderful days, nights and meetings in the park, I had what everyone lives their entire lives to find and I should just feel lucky to have found it once.
Then again, isn't it all just in my head and no better or worse than I want to make it?
Why does it come back time and time again with such fury to take over my moods and attention span?
I don't know, but I do know it is both a curse and blessing and I face it each time with such opposing emotions.
Amused Muse had her guard down yesterday and she made some choices that I could understand and relate to, and at the same time, talking to her about it just dug up my own emotions and thoughts... so here it is, maybe if I put it down in words it will get out of my head....
why? because I want to be rid of it. I want to be rid of the things that remind me of feelings so raw and so strong that I became a complete other person, and I am not sure if it was worth it or not,
Why? Because, whether curse or blessing, it hurts just the same.
Monday, December 12, 2005
I'm So Excited (and I just can't hide it)
As of today, I have movers, I have a day to move, the 29th of December, and I have a fantastic place to move to.
Everytime another detail falls into place I get more and more excited. I drive by my new digs nearly everyday, I am so excited. I am about to call and get all utilities etc. moved over and in place and I am excited.
I have a New Year's Eve game of Poker planned and I am excited.
Now all I have to do is pack and have it all ready for when the movers show up. I also need to get this place spic and span so it will be a no brainer after moving day.
Chief (dog) needs a new home, but I think that will fall into place soon as well. We will see...
Everytime another detail falls into place I get more and more excited. I drive by my new digs nearly everyday, I am so excited. I am about to call and get all utilities etc. moved over and in place and I am excited.
I have a New Year's Eve game of Poker planned and I am excited.
Now all I have to do is pack and have it all ready for when the movers show up. I also need to get this place spic and span so it will be a no brainer after moving day.
Chief (dog) needs a new home, but I think that will fall into place soon as well. We will see...
Sunday, December 11, 2005
My Pysche and Anniversarys
I think your psyche knows when an anniversary, good or bad, is approaching and it affects your mood/personality for that time period until the date is passed. Amused Muse seems to get sick on the anniversary of her marriage anniversary, even though they are divorced... her body and pysche know that it is a sad day for her, and they spin their webs to control her emotions. I have one of those working for me right now. One I didn't think I would ever feel anything about, but it must be, for I am not in the least interested in the holidays and celebrations this year, but perhaps next week, it will fade away, we will see.
So, I am either sleeping to ignore it, or I am planning out my new year resolutions, and only ones that are realistic.
Get in better shape/less in, more out
Take up reading/ stamping, anything but internet and TV, giving them up as much as I can.
Clean off my desk once a week.
Only go in Chico's when I have money to spend and they have a sale (that's a big one)
What are your resolutions?
So, I am either sleeping to ignore it, or I am planning out my new year resolutions, and only ones that are realistic.
Get in better shape/less in, more out
Take up reading/ stamping, anything but internet and TV, giving them up as much as I can.
Clean off my desk once a week.
Only go in Chico's when I have money to spend and they have a sale (that's a big one)
What are your resolutions?
Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired
My big move is coming up and as I prepare, I find it is harder than I thought it was going to be. I have to give my dog away... his pictures can be found http://bennu2.blogspot.com/ here. I wish I knew how to make that a pretty link, but I don't. Children growing up and moving on is easier for me than finding a home for the best dog I have ever had in my life. I have bawled about it all day, and I haven't even begun to find him a home, just thinking about it makes me so sad.
That, and finding a mover, and trying to get my son to pack his stuff for when he is out of state, so I don't have to do it... all on the heels of a fit of sickness that has my voice disappearing and reappearing on a day to day basis, a hacking cough, achey body, and bitchy feelings...
Went to the dr. yesterday, gave me an antibiotic but the thing I really need he said was rest and liquids.... hmmm can they be alcoholic libations? that I could go for... oh yea, muse quit drinking so I have to support her, so I quit too... ok, so can I please just take a nap until it is all over with?
That, and finding a mover, and trying to get my son to pack his stuff for when he is out of state, so I don't have to do it... all on the heels of a fit of sickness that has my voice disappearing and reappearing on a day to day basis, a hacking cough, achey body, and bitchy feelings...
Went to the dr. yesterday, gave me an antibiotic but the thing I really need he said was rest and liquids.... hmmm can they be alcoholic libations? that I could go for... oh yea, muse quit drinking so I have to support her, so I quit too... ok, so can I please just take a nap until it is all over with?
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
A Walking Contradiction I am
(yoda speak for old times sake)
Yes boys and girls. Today I am sick, more sick than yesterday, having lost my voice. Actually it has been dragging on for weeks now. I got better for about a week and then it came back. I may have a scratchy voice, sore throat, achy body and constant tiredness for awhile, if I live... but I digress.
During the day, I get nothing done but children and their work. Wanting to get the class Christmas tree up, I stayed after today, put it up and cleaned somewhat. Of course, that was after I had left for Tortilla Soup (mexican version of chicken soup) and returned. I finally left about 8 pm. On the way home I knew I needed to go by the dollar store. We are working on many holiday crafts and as good as my student's parents are, they haven't come up with all the supplies. I am breaking down to purchase some on my own, due to my own personal Santa providing some funds to spend on my class. As I drove, I began to think about how much better my throat felt after drinking hot soup and hot tea earlier in the day. I decide that tea will keep me up, but hot cocoa sounds really good. In the end, it is decided, in my feeble mind, that hot cocoa from Starbucks would be great. Once there, the idea of peppermint hot cocoa with whip cream is the cat's meow.... then I drive to the dollar store to be a spend thrift...lol... what a walking contradiction. 3 bucks for hot cocoa but unwilling to spend more than a buck per supply for school.... I am sick, and it ain't physical... lol
Yes boys and girls. Today I am sick, more sick than yesterday, having lost my voice. Actually it has been dragging on for weeks now. I got better for about a week and then it came back. I may have a scratchy voice, sore throat, achy body and constant tiredness for awhile, if I live... but I digress.
During the day, I get nothing done but children and their work. Wanting to get the class Christmas tree up, I stayed after today, put it up and cleaned somewhat. Of course, that was after I had left for Tortilla Soup (mexican version of chicken soup) and returned. I finally left about 8 pm. On the way home I knew I needed to go by the dollar store. We are working on many holiday crafts and as good as my student's parents are, they haven't come up with all the supplies. I am breaking down to purchase some on my own, due to my own personal Santa providing some funds to spend on my class. As I drove, I began to think about how much better my throat felt after drinking hot soup and hot tea earlier in the day. I decide that tea will keep me up, but hot cocoa sounds really good. In the end, it is decided, in my feeble mind, that hot cocoa from Starbucks would be great. Once there, the idea of peppermint hot cocoa with whip cream is the cat's meow.... then I drive to the dollar store to be a spend thrift...lol... what a walking contradiction. 3 bucks for hot cocoa but unwilling to spend more than a buck per supply for school.... I am sick, and it ain't physical... lol
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Little Things and Big Things
Those who know me, and know me well, KNOW that I keep a never ending list of "oh I wish I had" items going 24/7 and they are very specific things, not in general, for instance, a few of them are:
A black bullet head trashcan for my new kitchen (not just a trashcan, but a specific one)
A blender, a retro one that looks like it is from the 50's in silver (can't think of that word for metal)
A bread box (retro, of course)
Pink Flamingos for my bathroom ( I can go whole hog now that I don't have to share it with men)
BUT TO TELL THE TRUTH
it is the little things in life mean the most to me.... like
a slice of chocolate icebox pie at Tip Top Cafe
a call from Mr. Duvall, just to see how I am doing and to let me know he has been out deer watching (he isn't angry at them anymore so he doesn't shoot them, even though he has the gun with him).
a cold diet coke being served to me first thing in the morning
a chocolate shake at Cheesy Janes
a drive around to see the Christmas lights, and listening to Holiday Music
a hug from a 5 year old
a baby's smile
a call from one of my sons
a sharp repertoire of words with someone in jest
A Venti Chai Tea with good conversation
a good toast
the sun on my face
breakfast on a campfire as the sun rises
a walk along the beach
frolicking in the ocean
A stiff Parrot Bay and Diet RC with lime in a tall glass with a straw
and many more... so if I can have any of these for Christmas, they are probably more valuable to me than the things on the Big list.
A black bullet head trashcan for my new kitchen (not just a trashcan, but a specific one)
A blender, a retro one that looks like it is from the 50's in silver (can't think of that word for metal)
A bread box (retro, of course)
Pink Flamingos for my bathroom ( I can go whole hog now that I don't have to share it with men)
BUT TO TELL THE TRUTH
it is the little things in life mean the most to me.... like
a slice of chocolate icebox pie at Tip Top Cafe
a call from Mr. Duvall, just to see how I am doing and to let me know he has been out deer watching (he isn't angry at them anymore so he doesn't shoot them, even though he has the gun with him).
a cold diet coke being served to me first thing in the morning
a chocolate shake at Cheesy Janes
a drive around to see the Christmas lights, and listening to Holiday Music
a hug from a 5 year old
a baby's smile
a call from one of my sons
a sharp repertoire of words with someone in jest
A Venti Chai Tea with good conversation
a good toast
the sun on my face
breakfast on a campfire as the sun rises
a walk along the beach
frolicking in the ocean
A stiff Parrot Bay and Diet RC with lime in a tall glass with a straw
and many more... so if I can have any of these for Christmas, they are probably more valuable to me than the things on the Big list.
Serendipity
Life is not simply a series of meaningless acts or coincidences, but rather it is tapestry of an exquisite, divine plan. If we are to live life in harmony with the universe we must all possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to call fate and what we currently refer to as destiny.
I could use a little more faith, I need some harmony.
(I didn't write it, but I like what it says)
I could use a little more faith, I need some harmony.
(I didn't write it, but I like what it says)
Saturday, December 03, 2005
Alex Trex, Where are YOU?
It is already December, it is nearly the end of the year. The goal I had for the end of the year is not going to materialize. So, Alex, thanks for the good wishes (months ago) on my goal, but it is, alas, not going to be reached.... even though many other things I didn't plan on have come to fruition. If, by my birthday, things have not changed, I believe a new plan is needed... if not sooner. I miss you my friend, I hope all is going your way as it seems.
Friday, December 02, 2005
Traditions
The Christmas Lights in Johnson City at the local Electric Coop are amazing. An entire city block of trees around their offices that are completely covered in trees. I drive through there every year and some years travel back just to see the lights. This year, we came home from my mom's before dark, so I haven't seen them yet this year. A short trek to view this wondrous wonder will take place in a week or so, as I try to convince Amused Muse and/or RJ to join me. JD and I had plans to go last night, but life happens and it didn't turn out that way, and tomorrow he is on his way back to Afghanistan. So, in the meantime, here are some pictures from years past, even though they don't do them justice, it is magical and romantic....
My traditions are changing, but they are just as memorable. The Johnson City lights, poker games on New Years, dancing on my birthday, days on the beach as often as I can get there, and duck with oyster dressing on Thanksgiving (esp. with orange sauce, my oh my it was good). What traditions do you cherish?
My traditions are changing, but they are just as memorable. The Johnson City lights, poker games on New Years, dancing on my birthday, days on the beach as often as I can get there, and duck with oyster dressing on Thanksgiving (esp. with orange sauce, my oh my it was good). What traditions do you cherish?
Monday, November 28, 2005
A Woman's Prerogative or That Sounds Fishy To Me
Wow, how can I rent a place, unrent a place and rent another place in less than a day? I don't know, but I did.
I feel great about the new place, so here are the stats for those of you who want to come over for great dinners and entertaining. I now have a two bedroom condo, with a small yard and a pool view. I am so happy that I could just jump up and down and yell and laugh.
It is the same complex as the studio apt. (which was way too small). Built in the 50's (my fav), gas stove, wood floors, huge storage area under the stairs (yes, stairs to bedrooms), tile counters, end unit, so windows on the East, West (Bedroom windows) and AND< AND the south.... with trees right out the South and West windows, and a tree in the backyard, the parking is right behind or beside it, it is looks over the POOL, yes d.k. it is a pool view and that is what made it deliciously mine... I cannot wait... there will be invitations to a New Year's Eve housewarming, which may include poker playing... but I know that I am now, just as thrilled as I should be about getting my own place and where and what it is... I would have taken pictures, but I don't have a working camera.... and then the stealthy blogger in me says you don't need no stinking pictures, just think about paned glass windows, a mailslot by the front door, a 50's kitchen and cool cabinets, a dining area and a great living area, upstairs and down, and for those out of town guests or grown children, an extra bed. Oh... I feel so much better. And now, now boys and girls, I am excited, and with the first choice I was very wary and with good cause, that I won't discuss here, other than the title. I am dancing in my chair as I write this. But alas, it is bedtime, so goodnight my sweets, until tomorrow, parting is such sweet sorrow.
I feel great about the new place, so here are the stats for those of you who want to come over for great dinners and entertaining. I now have a two bedroom condo, with a small yard and a pool view. I am so happy that I could just jump up and down and yell and laugh.
It is the same complex as the studio apt. (which was way too small). Built in the 50's (my fav), gas stove, wood floors, huge storage area under the stairs (yes, stairs to bedrooms), tile counters, end unit, so windows on the East, West (Bedroom windows) and AND< AND the south.... with trees right out the South and West windows, and a tree in the backyard, the parking is right behind or beside it, it is looks over the POOL, yes d.k. it is a pool view and that is what made it deliciously mine... I cannot wait... there will be invitations to a New Year's Eve housewarming, which may include poker playing... but I know that I am now, just as thrilled as I should be about getting my own place and where and what it is... I would have taken pictures, but I don't have a working camera.... and then the stealthy blogger in me says you don't need no stinking pictures, just think about paned glass windows, a mailslot by the front door, a 50's kitchen and cool cabinets, a dining area and a great living area, upstairs and down, and for those out of town guests or grown children, an extra bed. Oh... I feel so much better. And now, now boys and girls, I am excited, and with the first choice I was very wary and with good cause, that I won't discuss here, other than the title. I am dancing in my chair as I write this. But alas, it is bedtime, so goodnight my sweets, until tomorrow, parting is such sweet sorrow.
Sunday, November 27, 2005
A Room With a View
JD and I spent the weekend in a Suite on Town Lake in Austin *yes a suite, it was great. We were several floors up and had a great view of the lake and Congress Avenue. He took a picture of me looking out the window this morning as two kayaks manuevered their way across the water. The sun was shining, the view was great, and the picture wasn't half bad so I have attached it.
TATS
Tattoos... I have thought many times over the years about getting one. Haven't done it yet. Even went into the parlor in Galveston on several occasions, and found some I liked, but none I thought I wanted to live with for the rest of my life or I didn't know for sure where I would have it done on my body.
Last weekend, JD and I were at Howl at the Moon on the riverwalk in San Antonio. There were many young girls in there, including a group of young ladies dressed as naughty Catholic Schoolgirls, rulers and all. More than one of them had a tat on her lower back and it showed. One of the piano players made a remark about it and said that he would prefer a woman have an article or something he could read while effing her. It was funny at the time (of course I was drinking). I would not pick my lower back, but I do see the allure. I have had a few temporary tats that I really liked. A Dragon, A lizard, an anklet Nordic design are among them as the most memorable . I believe I enjoyed them for the short time they were a part of me, the lizard imparticular, and the application there of was intersting as well, and I suppose that if I keep that in mind, it would make me more inclined to pick a design and a place to put it. However, I can't help but think that my "window" of opportunity has passed and I hesitated. Hmmm, sounds like many things in my life... but anyway... I enjoy seeing some tats on some people, hearing the stories behind them, but cannot force the idea of having one to go away or act on it either, so I will just let it go. If it is meant to occur, the time and place will present themselves, and if it isn't... then the window is closed, and it was not meant to be.
Do you have a tat? what is it, and why did you get it? Any interesting story attached?
Last weekend, JD and I were at Howl at the Moon on the riverwalk in San Antonio. There were many young girls in there, including a group of young ladies dressed as naughty Catholic Schoolgirls, rulers and all. More than one of them had a tat on her lower back and it showed. One of the piano players made a remark about it and said that he would prefer a woman have an article or something he could read while effing her. It was funny at the time (of course I was drinking). I would not pick my lower back, but I do see the allure. I have had a few temporary tats that I really liked. A Dragon, A lizard, an anklet Nordic design are among them as the most memorable . I believe I enjoyed them for the short time they were a part of me, the lizard imparticular, and the application there of was intersting as well, and I suppose that if I keep that in mind, it would make me more inclined to pick a design and a place to put it. However, I can't help but think that my "window" of opportunity has passed and I hesitated. Hmmm, sounds like many things in my life... but anyway... I enjoy seeing some tats on some people, hearing the stories behind them, but cannot force the idea of having one to go away or act on it either, so I will just let it go. If it is meant to occur, the time and place will present themselves, and if it isn't... then the window is closed, and it was not meant to be.
Do you have a tat? what is it, and why did you get it? Any interesting story attached?
It's a Done Deal
New Home found.... will not be comfortable until all the moving is done... had to pick the paint first, so it will give me some time to pack and sell.
Thought about selling the kayak, but alas, the purchase of it is one of my best memories, so I think RJ is going to store it for me until we can go kayaking. We? well, that is whoever I can talk into going along.
Will have to sell many other things. Thinking about a huge sale right after I move everything that will fit in to my new teeny tiny abode.
It's hard to move. Not that I like where I am, it is just all those damn skeletons in the those closets that I don't care to disturb. Plus, in the middle of a school year doesn't help. RJ suggested the Three Stooges Moving Company, they come in and move it all, using their truck.... that sounds good.... Do they pack and unpack and decorate too? Oh my... I am getting tired just thinking about it.
Thought about selling the kayak, but alas, the purchase of it is one of my best memories, so I think RJ is going to store it for me until we can go kayaking. We? well, that is whoever I can talk into going along.
Will have to sell many other things. Thinking about a huge sale right after I move everything that will fit in to my new teeny tiny abode.
It's hard to move. Not that I like where I am, it is just all those damn skeletons in the those closets that I don't care to disturb. Plus, in the middle of a school year doesn't help. RJ suggested the Three Stooges Moving Company, they come in and move it all, using their truck.... that sounds good.... Do they pack and unpack and decorate too? Oh my... I am getting tired just thinking about it.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
A New Home
Ok boys and girls here are the prospects, Let me know what you think:
studio apt. for 400 bucks a month- pool, gas stove, wood floors, no washer dryer hookups, bathette (not a full bath), window unit heat/air located off Basse and McCullough (guess I should learn how to spell that eh?)
Guest house 695 month- private, full house, washer/dryer hookups, huge walk in closet, completely redone, all bills paid, including basic cable, hard wood floors, kitchen bathroom tile throughout. Central Heat and Air, located in Alamo Heights.... *and no pool :(
It does seem to be a no brainer doesn't it? or does it? What do you think?
studio apt. for 400 bucks a month- pool, gas stove, wood floors, no washer dryer hookups, bathette (not a full bath), window unit heat/air located off Basse and McCullough (guess I should learn how to spell that eh?)
Guest house 695 month- private, full house, washer/dryer hookups, huge walk in closet, completely redone, all bills paid, including basic cable, hard wood floors, kitchen bathroom tile throughout. Central Heat and Air, located in Alamo Heights.... *and no pool :(
It does seem to be a no brainer doesn't it? or does it? What do you think?
Home for the Holiday
Calgon Take me away................
Actually, after talking to Amused Muse, it isn't as bad as I thought it was.
She was unwrapping caramels to make a nasty creation on the back of a can... and it involved the microwave... I was howling and rolling on the floor as she regaled me with this tale... to understand it fully, you have to know AM, and that she cooks everything from scratch and only uses a microwave to heat things up when they are left overs or popcorn. She also has been having trouble with her arthritis, so unwrapping the individual caramels did a number on her...
Oh ok, so I can relax about the incompetence of the help at the book store and how they don't know prominent authors names and won't get off their backsides to help you look on the SHELF for a book. And I can overlook the snooty sales GIRL at my favorite dress shop and how she didn't want to wait on me because of how I was dressed or something.... but the young lady who did wait on me made a good sale with my holiday dress for the Christmas party.... and then there is my mother telling me how to drive, wear my hair, stand in line, and fussing at me because I don't have any change in my purse. I can relax now... because Amused Muse showed me the way.... Thanks, My friend, I give thanks for you and all you do to help me stay on an even keel.
Actually, after talking to Amused Muse, it isn't as bad as I thought it was.
She was unwrapping caramels to make a nasty creation on the back of a can... and it involved the microwave... I was howling and rolling on the floor as she regaled me with this tale... to understand it fully, you have to know AM, and that she cooks everything from scratch and only uses a microwave to heat things up when they are left overs or popcorn. She also has been having trouble with her arthritis, so unwrapping the individual caramels did a number on her...
Oh ok, so I can relax about the incompetence of the help at the book store and how they don't know prominent authors names and won't get off their backsides to help you look on the SHELF for a book. And I can overlook the snooty sales GIRL at my favorite dress shop and how she didn't want to wait on me because of how I was dressed or something.... but the young lady who did wait on me made a good sale with my holiday dress for the Christmas party.... and then there is my mother telling me how to drive, wear my hair, stand in line, and fussing at me because I don't have any change in my purse. I can relax now... because Amused Muse showed me the way.... Thanks, My friend, I give thanks for you and all you do to help me stay on an even keel.
Monday, November 21, 2005
A Picture Meme
Borrowed from le laquet ... a picture memeThis is how you play :: do a Google image search of the following and post the first (or favorite if you want to cheat, but label it so) result for each::
The name of the town where you were born
The name of the town where you live now
Your name
Your grandmother’s name (just pick one)
Your favorite food
Your favorite drink
Your favorite song
Your favorite smell
I did it and posted and for some reason the pictures went in ascending order rather than descending. Funny it couldn't find my grandmother's real name, had to use her "nickname".
Bennu's Christmas List
A PLACE TO LIVE (weren't you looking for me one RJ?)
1. Socks... they are special ones of course, from Prima Sports
2. New walking/running shoes, just like my old ones
3. One pair of Keds so I can wear them to school
4. New underwear from Jockey
5. Gift certificate from Chico's (always a great gift anytime)
6. Starbucks gift card
7. digital camera (mine died)
8. New pocket knife (I gave mine away and never got a new one)
9. Housekeeper (Hey, it is a WISH LIST)
10. Kayak goodies, seat backs, paddles, etc....
11. vacuum cleaner
12. dustmop/broom for tile floor
13. A day at the spa (just for RJ, because he thinks I should want jewelry and this is as expensive)
Ummm well it isn't finished yet, and I am too tired to think... it is more of a reminder for me of what to work toward than anything else... what would you put on your wish list?
1. Socks... they are special ones of course, from Prima Sports
2. New walking/running shoes, just like my old ones
3. One pair of Keds so I can wear them to school
4. New underwear from Jockey
5. Gift certificate from Chico's (always a great gift anytime)
6. Starbucks gift card
7. digital camera (mine died)
8. New pocket knife (I gave mine away and never got a new one)
9. Housekeeper (Hey, it is a WISH LIST)
10. Kayak goodies, seat backs, paddles, etc....
11. vacuum cleaner
12. dustmop/broom for tile floor
13. A day at the spa (just for RJ, because he thinks I should want jewelry and this is as expensive)
Ummm well it isn't finished yet, and I am too tired to think... it is more of a reminder for me of what to work toward than anything else... what would you put on your wish list?
School WISH LIST
1. Two books, The Twelve Days of Christmas and Twas the Night Before Christmas by Jan Brett.... (someone has already purchased two beautiful copies of these books, but I need regular copies to use in class for 3 weeks) Got Them
2. Uniball pens, purple or black, medium point.... the really SMOOTH ones...
3. A Christmas Tree for our class
4. Manheim Steamroller Christmas CD to play in class
5. VHS Tape of Polar Express to show with that unit Got it (Thanks JD)
6. Instant Teapot I can plug in to make hot water or tea
7. Hot plate for in class cooking
8. Handwriting Practice Books Got them
more info when I think of it...
2. Uniball pens, purple or black, medium point.... the really SMOOTH ones...
3. A Christmas Tree for our class
4. Manheim Steamroller Christmas CD to play in class
5. VHS Tape of Polar Express to show with that unit Got it (Thanks JD)
6. Instant Teapot I can plug in to make hot water or tea
7. Hot plate for in class cooking
8. Handwriting Practice Books Got them
more info when I think of it...
OK, a Little Telling, without the Kissing Part
The day long date:
Lunch= great, food, great, company, great... just great
Afternoon= relaxing, enjoyed it immensely, we talked a little, we laughed quite a bit, and we learned a little bit more about each other.
The View= from the 22nd floor of the Marriot was FANTABULOSO. That's now the easiest way to impress me. I have seen views of city lights from highrise condos and everytime, I love it, it is just like Christmas. I could live in a highrise apt. complex or a condo... but they aren't in my price range. It was great right before dark, when the sky was dark purple, and the clouds were showing and the city lights were coming on... right before we left for dinner.
Dinner= Paesanos was WONDERFUL, thank you, the food was divine, we sat outside, the river was close, the drinks were good, the company could not have been better.
Howl at the Moon= after a small altercation of getting a seat to sit in (JD lost his temper, but regained his composure fairly fast, remember he has not had much sleep and traveled 9000 miles to see me, so I can overlook a small altercation) it was a great time... the music lifted my spirits even further, if that was possible, we laughed, we drank, we sang, we held hands... woohoo... of course we were holding hands since we met, but I still like it...
That's it... a great date, and I have been asked for another next weekend... so I am thrilled...
Lunch= great, food, great, company, great... just great
Afternoon= relaxing, enjoyed it immensely, we talked a little, we laughed quite a bit, and we learned a little bit more about each other.
The View= from the 22nd floor of the Marriot was FANTABULOSO. That's now the easiest way to impress me. I have seen views of city lights from highrise condos and everytime, I love it, it is just like Christmas. I could live in a highrise apt. complex or a condo... but they aren't in my price range. It was great right before dark, when the sky was dark purple, and the clouds were showing and the city lights were coming on... right before we left for dinner.
Dinner= Paesanos was WONDERFUL, thank you, the food was divine, we sat outside, the river was close, the drinks were good, the company could not have been better.
Howl at the Moon= after a small altercation of getting a seat to sit in (JD lost his temper, but regained his composure fairly fast, remember he has not had much sleep and traveled 9000 miles to see me, so I can overlook a small altercation) it was a great time... the music lifted my spirits even further, if that was possible, we laughed, we drank, we sang, we held hands... woohoo... of course we were holding hands since we met, but I still like it...
That's it... a great date, and I have been asked for another next weekend... so I am thrilled...
Is This a Break?
Spent Friday evening with Amused Muse and then tortuous shopping for undergarments. Amused Muse had me concerned about the quality of my undergarments for my date with JD... that shopping expedition took all evening... Saturday morning I slept in til 8, got up, watched a few things I had on the DVR, JD called (*surprised, yes I was) on his way to the seminar he had been planning on attending. Then I got up and started getting ready to meet him. Left the house at noon, spent a wonderful afternoon and evening with him. It went far better than I could have hoped for. Of course we still don't really *know* each other, but so far so good. (no, I am not kissing and telling, but I will say... if I hadn't kissed, I could have told...lol)
Sunday morning I traversed the roads again to eat breakfast with JD, then came home to take a nap. RJ and I had planned a cup of Joe with good convo, so he called after an hour of napping, and I got up and went, somewhat reluctantly, since I wanted to sleep... but it was my idea, and I needed to get up and get moving.
Met him at the local constellation gazing dollar hungry coffee shop and had Chai Tea, yum... we traded stories of how our Sat. Night dates went... both went swimmingly, and we decoded the woman/man code of the things the counterpart to our dates said, asked, implied... it is nice to have a spy to help interpret. Then we bought coffee for my mom at Whole Foods, the holiday Celebration flavor, a build your own 6 pack and some Cliff Bars for RJ and a candle for me. Then he reminds me that I wanted to eat, but he wasn't really hungry... ummm there's a PF Changs, wanna have a lite bite? So we end up at the bar, eating appetizers and RJ has a martini (he is very picky about them, and I could tell the bartender was well versed in his martini building skills so I watched in anticipation of a really good martini for RJ, and it was. After eating, I wanted to have a really good drink, and, having never had a drink at PFC, I chose to look over the "specialty drink" menu.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOO I like the name Poolside for a drink, does it have what I like in it... woohoo, it does, rum, rum, and more rum... yummy. It also has OJ and PJ in it. YUM... and Blue Cuaracao (sp?)... I suppose to look like a pool... I ordered it.
It came out GREEN... boys and girls, a green drink is just not natural to me...ok ok , I get it... most drink colors are not natural... red, blue, etc... and green is more natural than some of them, but this drink was a funky green, I suppose due to the blue and the fruit juices... but it was YUMMY... I could have sat by the pool...ummm bar, all day and drank them... but I would not have been able to get up if I had.
While enjoying my yummy drink, Amused Muse calls, and she has finished painting her wall and asks for a discerning eye to view it. I end up getting an invitation for homemade burgers with a warning her SO is home. Oh honey, I will be nice, I don't mind him, I just don't like the way he does you... but he won't do it in front of me.
Finish my drink and visit with RJ, then we say our Turkey Goodbyes and Thanksgiving wishes and I drive ALL THE WAY to AM's house. Stayed for great burgers, saw the wall, it was great, moved the china cabinet since Amused Muse has a hurt shoulder, read the paper (yes still looking for a place) and was friendly to the man in her life.
Drove home to a house that needs cleaning, work that I should do, and this morning I am suppose to have already left for a week with my mom... so when am I having a break so I can get my house in order... .guess I will have to invent one.
Sunday morning I traversed the roads again to eat breakfast with JD, then came home to take a nap. RJ and I had planned a cup of Joe with good convo, so he called after an hour of napping, and I got up and went, somewhat reluctantly, since I wanted to sleep... but it was my idea, and I needed to get up and get moving.
Met him at the local constellation gazing dollar hungry coffee shop and had Chai Tea, yum... we traded stories of how our Sat. Night dates went... both went swimmingly, and we decoded the woman/man code of the things the counterpart to our dates said, asked, implied... it is nice to have a spy to help interpret. Then we bought coffee for my mom at Whole Foods, the holiday Celebration flavor, a build your own 6 pack and some Cliff Bars for RJ and a candle for me. Then he reminds me that I wanted to eat, but he wasn't really hungry... ummm there's a PF Changs, wanna have a lite bite? So we end up at the bar, eating appetizers and RJ has a martini (he is very picky about them, and I could tell the bartender was well versed in his martini building skills so I watched in anticipation of a really good martini for RJ, and it was. After eating, I wanted to have a really good drink, and, having never had a drink at PFC, I chose to look over the "specialty drink" menu.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOO I like the name Poolside for a drink, does it have what I like in it... woohoo, it does, rum, rum, and more rum... yummy. It also has OJ and PJ in it. YUM... and Blue Cuaracao (sp?)... I suppose to look like a pool... I ordered it.
It came out GREEN... boys and girls, a green drink is just not natural to me...ok ok , I get it... most drink colors are not natural... red, blue, etc... and green is more natural than some of them, but this drink was a funky green, I suppose due to the blue and the fruit juices... but it was YUMMY... I could have sat by the pool...ummm bar, all day and drank them... but I would not have been able to get up if I had.
While enjoying my yummy drink, Amused Muse calls, and she has finished painting her wall and asks for a discerning eye to view it. I end up getting an invitation for homemade burgers with a warning her SO is home. Oh honey, I will be nice, I don't mind him, I just don't like the way he does you... but he won't do it in front of me.
Finish my drink and visit with RJ, then we say our Turkey Goodbyes and Thanksgiving wishes and I drive ALL THE WAY to AM's house. Stayed for great burgers, saw the wall, it was great, moved the china cabinet since Amused Muse has a hurt shoulder, read the paper (yes still looking for a place) and was friendly to the man in her life.
Drove home to a house that needs cleaning, work that I should do, and this morning I am suppose to have already left for a week with my mom... so when am I having a break so I can get my house in order... .guess I will have to invent one.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Your Say and I Think
- Heads up:: Forewarning
- Kicker :: Cowboy
- Aggressive:: ???? mind was blank
- Getting ugly:: drama
- To be continued:: bummer
- Twist:: and Shout
- Form:: paperwork
- On the road:: road trip
- Import:: Export
- Flowers:: *smile* For ME? I LOVE White Daisys, Sunflowers and mixed bouquets, but roses, pink or yellow will bring tears of joy and I will melt in the palm of your hand.
Friday, November 18, 2005
Thanksgiving Turkeys
All week I have been creating Thanksgiving memoraliabilia, ok, crap, for my students to wear, have, take home, after our Thanksgiving FEAST today. The best thing we did was the Turkeys out of gourds. Some
pictures are here, but they don't do them justice, they are so much more fun in person.We also baked pumpkin pies... the yummiest recipe I have ever had, made Sweet Potato Casserole, Roasted a Turkey in class today, and made my family favorite, Pink Fuzzy Jumping Stuff (actually a fruit salad with jello, whipping cream and marshmallows). It was divine and the students all loved it (well most of them loved most of it). Parents were great help and it went as smoothly as any other Thanksgiving dinner I have done at any grade level.
But NOW... it is OVER and I can think of other things...like my date with JD tomorrow... he called tonight, oh ladies, I think this is going to be a very good date.... we will see... lord knows I have made worse choices and lived through the consequences.
Monday, November 14, 2005
I have a date at the River Walk
Yes, boys and girls, I have a date on Saturday for drinks, dinner, dessert ;) and musical enjoyment at the River Walk in San Antonio. JD will be here, with a room right on the river (calm down, calm down.... yes I am talking to myself) ... anyway, Paesanos, good choice courtesy of RJ's suggestion.
A very nice time out on the town... when is the last time I got to do that... well, if you have to think about it, it's been too long... yes it has. I am still absolutely giddy... and that is him in the pic... not bad eh... lol
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Salmagundi
Many things are on my mind this evening, and some not at all.
Less than a week now til I meet J.D. After discussing the situation with RJ, I am told, I may be a demolition expert. I tend to agree. So, if I make it til next Saturday, without creating an explosion, I will meet J.D.
Friday at school we had Stone Soup, after learning all about the book all week. The students brought veggies and all the stuff they mention in the book. We cooked on a hotplate and ate a little of it after all had eaten their lunch. The kids all loved it. We are going to have a great week this week too. Creating turkeys for Thanksgiving, out of dried gourds and having a FEAST on Friday. I can't wait til we are celebrating Christmas... I love the holidays and my students and I have so much fun.
Today I watched Diary of a Mad Black Woman and it was pretty good, and then I watch Breakfast at Tiffany's, which was great and I don't think I had ever seen the whole thing. Pretty racy stuff being a man who is kept by a rich married woman... for when it was made... There was a line in Diary that I really liked, and maybe someday I will have the opportunity to use it. There was a scene where the woman is breaking up with the new boyfriend, and asks him to be friends... and he says something to the effect of "you just don't get it do you? Why would I give you up only to give you the best part of me? " You go guy, I know that feeling exactly.
Less than a week now til I meet J.D. After discussing the situation with RJ, I am told, I may be a demolition expert. I tend to agree. So, if I make it til next Saturday, without creating an explosion, I will meet J.D.
Friday at school we had Stone Soup, after learning all about the book all week. The students brought veggies and all the stuff they mention in the book. We cooked on a hotplate and ate a little of it after all had eaten their lunch. The kids all loved it. We are going to have a great week this week too. Creating turkeys for Thanksgiving, out of dried gourds and having a FEAST on Friday. I can't wait til we are celebrating Christmas... I love the holidays and my students and I have so much fun.
Today I watched Diary of a Mad Black Woman and it was pretty good, and then I watch Breakfast at Tiffany's, which was great and I don't think I had ever seen the whole thing. Pretty racy stuff being a man who is kept by a rich married woman... for when it was made... There was a line in Diary that I really liked, and maybe someday I will have the opportunity to use it. There was a scene where the woman is breaking up with the new boyfriend, and asks him to be friends... and he says something to the effect of "you just don't get it do you? Why would I give you up only to give you the best part of me? " You go guy, I know that feeling exactly.
Customer from Hell
Yes, boys and girls, I am the customer from hell. I don't try to be, it just turns out that way... I expect service, I expect to get my money's worth, and apparently, I am a tight wad of late... or at least I want to feel like I got what I paid for.
Rick and I had a great breakfast at Gini's in San Antonio today. We had neither one ever been there, but I see the sign every morning on the way to work about how they have the best pancakes in town. I have been having a craving for Magnolia's in Austin, so in this case, advertising did pay. The omelette I wanted was 6.99 for a basic 3 egg omelette, and .50 extra for each item, and of course 1.00 for spinach, so I had that with bacon, onions, and cheese. Subbed a pancake for the bread and had hashbrowns... and as I realized that was what I would get, I told Rick it was a 10 dollar breakfast, but I was going to get it.
He, on the other hand, just wanted french toast and sausage (and I am not a FT fan, but it was to die for).
The point? I have found that when I am out with Rick or Terry, they feel the need to 'fore warn" the wait person that I am "high maintenance" and to "beware"...
NO>>> I just want what I pay for... so if you want a tip, the service should reflect it. And, if I order a 10 dollar omelette, I expect it to be good. It was fantastic by the way... I will go back there, again.
So, for once and for all, here is the scoop... I once waited tables and bartended, and was a cocktail waitress as well... when you serve a cocktail, you should put a beverage napkin down first. Every drink served that should have a garnish has one, not just the first drink. The time to offer them another is when their drink is just about half empty. The customer is always right and you work to make the experience for them a good one.
Terry and I were at a reputable steak restaurant chain last Wednesday, and the bill was about 80 dollars (yes I ate dinner, but we also were drinking to get fizzuphin (Terry swears it's a word in german that means drunk, but I don't know how to spell it, so I don't know if it's true, if you know let me know) and we neither one felt like we could drink enough to get drunk.
LSS< I didn't think he deserved a tip. He was rude, didn't use bevnaps, let me sit there over 10 minutes with an EMPTY glass more than once, didn't give me a fresh straw with each drink and .... and... would not answer my calls using his name. There were less than 8 other customers at the bar...but even when I think some one doesn't deserve a tip, I usually leave 10 percent, which in this case I did.
And, YES< I know how it sounds, but I also know that people in the service industry do not really provide the service that was provided a mere 20 or so years ago. I suppose most people don't expect service either....
I tend to expect more out of people than most people do... and it gets me labeled as high maintenance or the customer from hell. So Be It.
Rick and I had a great breakfast at Gini's in San Antonio today. We had neither one ever been there, but I see the sign every morning on the way to work about how they have the best pancakes in town. I have been having a craving for Magnolia's in Austin, so in this case, advertising did pay. The omelette I wanted was 6.99 for a basic 3 egg omelette, and .50 extra for each item, and of course 1.00 for spinach, so I had that with bacon, onions, and cheese. Subbed a pancake for the bread and had hashbrowns... and as I realized that was what I would get, I told Rick it was a 10 dollar breakfast, but I was going to get it.
He, on the other hand, just wanted french toast and sausage (and I am not a FT fan, but it was to die for).
The point? I have found that when I am out with Rick or Terry, they feel the need to 'fore warn" the wait person that I am "high maintenance" and to "beware"...
NO>>> I just want what I pay for... so if you want a tip, the service should reflect it. And, if I order a 10 dollar omelette, I expect it to be good. It was fantastic by the way... I will go back there, again.
So, for once and for all, here is the scoop... I once waited tables and bartended, and was a cocktail waitress as well... when you serve a cocktail, you should put a beverage napkin down first. Every drink served that should have a garnish has one, not just the first drink. The time to offer them another is when their drink is just about half empty. The customer is always right and you work to make the experience for them a good one.
Terry and I were at a reputable steak restaurant chain last Wednesday, and the bill was about 80 dollars (yes I ate dinner, but we also were drinking to get fizzuphin (Terry swears it's a word in german that means drunk, but I don't know how to spell it, so I don't know if it's true, if you know let me know) and we neither one felt like we could drink enough to get drunk.
LSS< I didn't think he deserved a tip. He was rude, didn't use bevnaps, let me sit there over 10 minutes with an EMPTY glass more than once, didn't give me a fresh straw with each drink and .... and... would not answer my calls using his name. There were less than 8 other customers at the bar...but even when I think some one doesn't deserve a tip, I usually leave 10 percent, which in this case I did.
And, YES< I know how it sounds, but I also know that people in the service industry do not really provide the service that was provided a mere 20 or so years ago. I suppose most people don't expect service either....
I tend to expect more out of people than most people do... and it gets me labeled as high maintenance or the customer from hell. So Be It.
Friday, November 11, 2005
The Pitfalls of Chatting Online
I have had friends I have chatted with online for many many years, some come, some go, and always, always, there is that margin of error in reading what you think it says and not getting what the writer intended. You only read into what you want to read. Some friends last less than a minute, some last more than 5 years (my australian friend, who is there when I am suffering from insomnia). There is the wide gammut of the in between folks.
I almost lost my new friend the other day... and for no good reason that I could see, we weren't reading what we wanted to read, or were we, into the conversation.
Yes we are down to less than 7 days, and for him even less due to the fact he loses a day when he flies home.
Anyway, the pitfalls of chatting online are numerous.. just as you are reading this, it is the same. You may think I am being sarcastic, or serious, or not serious at all, depending on what is going on in your little head. It really sucks... so to alleviate that misunderstanding before you really know anything at all about someone, I usually try to meet someone as soon as possible... which when they live half way around the world, it is very, VERY, difficult to know the other's sense of humor, abilitiy to use sarcasm, or create a light joking atmosphere... and make sure your audience knows where you are coming from..
Caveat Emptor
I almost lost my new friend the other day... and for no good reason that I could see, we weren't reading what we wanted to read, or were we, into the conversation.
Yes we are down to less than 7 days, and for him even less due to the fact he loses a day when he flies home.
Anyway, the pitfalls of chatting online are numerous.. just as you are reading this, it is the same. You may think I am being sarcastic, or serious, or not serious at all, depending on what is going on in your little head. It really sucks... so to alleviate that misunderstanding before you really know anything at all about someone, I usually try to meet someone as soon as possible... which when they live half way around the world, it is very, VERY, difficult to know the other's sense of humor, abilitiy to use sarcasm, or create a light joking atmosphere... and make sure your audience knows where you are coming from..
Caveat Emptor
I Love Teaching Kindergarten
Mr. Duvall called me today... to see how I was doing... I found myself gushing and expressing what a great time I am having teaching kinder. I absofuckinglutely LOVE it... it is exactly what I have always wanted to do... of course we talked about other things, but when I got off the phone, I realized how much I really meant what I said to him about it (and no, the above is not an exact quote, I would not use THAT word with him). Some parts of my life have definitely improved in the last 6 months... and I realized it tonight when he called... and he made me smile.. I hadn't heard from him in... oh more than a month, and I haven't seen him since April... so it was good to hear from him. He definitely could tell things were better with me, or so he said...
I love teaching kinder... and it shows...lol
I love teaching kinder... and it shows...lol
Monday, November 07, 2005
Love Life is looking up
It is still in the infant stages but things are looking hopeful for the most recent candidate J.D.. Amazingly enough, that is his real name... I have been restraining from sharing my excitement with the world, so as not to jinx it, but I got the sweetest email from him today. I just can't contain myself any longer.
The rest is still a mystery, but in 12 days, more will be shared, or actually 14 days, because I get to "officially" meet him in 12 days. Now I know that sounds funny, but he is half way around the world working as a Physician's Assistant in Kuwait and will be here on leave in 12 days.
Now you know I am very cautious, but so far, he has not raised a single red flag... which is amazing.
I am absolutely giddy, and my students have noticed it, as well as some others who don't know me as well.
Have a great day everybody, I know I did after I read that email.
The rest is still a mystery, but in 12 days, more will be shared, or actually 14 days, because I get to "officially" meet him in 12 days. Now I know that sounds funny, but he is half way around the world working as a Physician's Assistant in Kuwait and will be here on leave in 12 days.
Now you know I am very cautious, but so far, he has not raised a single red flag... which is amazing.
I am absolutely giddy, and my students have noticed it, as well as some others who don't know me as well.
Have a great day everybody, I know I did after I read that email.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Post Awards Day
My students were so great for the awards. They walked up, shook my hand, took their awards, and then stood in a line for recognition. Afterwards, they sat in their chairs and put their certificates/ribbons on the table and didn't mess with them.... REMEMBER they are 5 YEAR OLDS... I was so proud. They were so much more well-behaved than the other classes. I rewarded them with lunch with me in the classroom and we watched Scooby Doo on TV... the first time I have done that this year... it won't be a regular thing. Anyway, all that hard work on my part and on theirs is paying off...
Thursday, November 03, 2005
AWARDS DAY
I love teaching kindergarten. This is the first year I have taught it. Halloween was my first major reminder... "Oh yeah, I am the first impression they have for school" ... man that is a big job...
Today is the first AWARDS DAY, and I am nervous... it is their first award, it will dictate for them what these ceremonies will mean to them for the rest of their lives. I am not a big advocate of "give everyone an award" but hey, this is kindergarten, they are going to be crushed if they don't get one. ....
I have to go get dressed now... you would think I was going to the Oscars as much as I have fussed over what to wear.
Today is the first AWARDS DAY, and I am nervous... it is their first award, it will dictate for them what these ceremonies will mean to them for the rest of their lives. I am not a big advocate of "give everyone an award" but hey, this is kindergarten, they are going to be crushed if they don't get one. ....
I have to go get dressed now... you would think I was going to the Oscars as much as I have fussed over what to wear.
Flirting is so much fun
I really enjoy flirting. Not your random, be a flirt to everyone, flirting. I like flirting with someone who I have a small crush on or a large crush. Flirting with someone you are getting to know well or know very well, who is potentially a significant other. Yes, boys and girls, I finally met someone who might turn into something other than a single date or two. It is hard to tell now, but we will see... I am definitely enjoying the flirting.
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